May 1, 2009
At 6 o’ clock, I was already wide awake. I
just stayed on the bed until 7:30. Then I washed Hanna’s clothes.
When the couple woke up, uneasiness started
to fill my entirety. I had nothing to do. The yard was still clean. There was
no hugasan in the kitchen. So, Hanna
and I took a walk around the garden until Jano directed me to do marketing at
past 9 am.
Mj regarded Hanna through text. I told her,
“Mbuti nman. Msaya cia kc and2 c
Courtney.” She seems fine today compared last night.
Past 12 noon, I tend Hanna to sleep. I was
fanning her while she was sleeping and while she does, I was exercising. I was
determined to gain weight.
Before 8 pm. Aileen texted me. She said
that they were already in Manila since yesterday at 6 pm. She also asked me if
I knew a clinic, where her swollen and reddish eye could be checked up. I asked
few questions and found out that she has already applied Eye Mo on it, which
whitened her eye. Thus I advised her to stop using that. I also told her the
location of EAMC.
May 2, 2009
At seven, I was already exercising. I did
it while Hanna was sleeping. The couple was already awake at that time.
Nine, I discovered that the cashew trees
downhill have ripe fruits already. There were fallen fruits on the ground. Thus
after preparing the ingredients of my menu, I went downhill. I picked cashew
seeds. I also dis some cutting of weeds. It was until past 10 am.
While I was cooking, Marlene “Cute” Quobe
texted me. She first asked my whereabout and about my schooling. Then she
opened up about Tina Sus’ arrival on May 6 from Dubai and their plan of
jamming. She invited me. I first thought that it would be held in Bulan. But
when I have learned that it would take place here in Manila, I immediately say,
“Oo ba.”
This is the second invitation. First was
Sheryl’s. The third invitations should come from the OFW herself because she’s
the one who would host the bonding, though I am not sure if I could join them.
I am so willing to see them.
One pm, when Hanna declined to sleep, I went
downhill again to pursue cutting weeds. I did it in one hour. I was almost done
clearing the underneath of the cashew trees.
May 3, 2009
I exercised again at seven. Hanna was still
sleeping when I was doing it. She woke up at past 8.
After having coffee and bread, I went
downhill to pick cashew seeds. But when I got there, I was disappointed to see
almost no fallen cashew fruits on the ground. Thus I pulled out some cassavas
near the trees. I have collected almost two kilograms of them since yesterday.
I decided to give it to my in-laws today.
Past nine. My cousin, Klyn, notified me
that LET result was in the internet already. She passed but she forget to look
for my name on the list. Later I texted Tina, Padi Glenn, and Ate Salve. They
don’t reply.
I have learned from Ate Che that Bulan has
no electric service to date. So she could not look for the LET result in the
net.
I was very excited to know the result. At
the same time, It gives me nervousness.
At past 1 pm, Hanna and I left Bautista. I
was supposed to leave at 5 pm, but because Gie was watching ABS-CBN’s tv
program, instead of GMA’s, which was the fight of Manny Pacquiao and Ricky
Hatton was about to be shown. I wanted to see how Pacman knocks out Hitman.
When I got to my in-laws’ house, the fight
was about to start. I was overwhelmed to the fight.
I texted Klyn at past 2 pm. I said, “Cousin, nklmutan u b tlga tingnan ang name
q sa internet o nhi2ya u lng sbhin n d aq pumasa?”
She did not reply. Silence means yes, but I
was still hoping I passed the licensure. I wanted to start my teaching career
this June. I would be less confident to apply if I failed the exam.
Mj insisted that I should stay tonight here
in my in-laws’ house. After her long litany, I made decision. I would sleep
over here this night.
May 4, 2009
Past 5 am, I woke up. Mj treated me coffee
after that I left to Sauyo, Novaliches. Mama was not yet ready when I got
there. But she’s expecting my arrival.
Lola Alice gave us P300. She wanted us to
hire taxi cab in going to East Avenue Medical Center. Auntie Vangie might be
disappointed, but I understand Lola’s situation. I was thankful for that iota
amount.
Past 8:30, we were already at the eye
center. We waited again. But that time, it’s worth it because corneal transplant
was already scheduled on May 6.
After few instructions, we were disposed.
It was past eleven o’ clock. We immediately went to Auntie Vangie’s house,
without texting her. I just did when we got there.
Ayen accommodated us. Our arrival was unexpected.
Thus she was not prepared. But it was okay. At least our hunger was satisfied,
as well as, our thirst.
It was past 1:30 pm when Auntie Vangie
replied. She permitted me to leave Mama there. She also asked if Lola Alice and
Auntie Belen gave financial support. I told her the truth. She did not reply.
Jano came in at past 2 pm. It was after I
texted him. He just dropped by to see Mama.
I texted Taiwan and Flor Rhina, too at past
1 pm. I asked them if they could be at PGH (Eye Center) to get the cornea
there. They did not respond.
Past 2 pm, Jano and I left Mama.
I got to my in-laws’ house at past 3 pm.
They were already about to go to Calove’s house to attend Sam’s 3rd
birthday. I would join, too. This is one of the reasons why I left Mama. The first
is ‘I wanted Auntie Vangie and Mama have a talk on twosome.’
Four-thirty-two o’ clock, Ate Che sent this
to me: “Congratz! Kaw lng pasado, Froi…”
At first, I did not believe her. Thus I
replied, “Joke lng b yn?”
She confirmed that it’s true. I was so
glad! I thanked God. I almost cry for joy. Mj was so happy, as well.
We were already at Calove’s residence when
Tina congratulated me. And we were eating when Mj announced to them that I
passed the LET. I was so happy!
May 5, 2009
Six am, I was awakened by Mj. She treated
me with coffee while I was dressing up. Then I left after 15 minutes. Past 7:30
when I reached Auntie Vangie’s house. After 30 minutes, Tito Rey and Auntie
Vangie saw me. We conversed while having breakfast. One of our topics was about
teaching. It was when Mama announced to them that I passed the licensure exam.
The couple shook hand with me.
After helping Mama in her preparations and
her personal hygiene, we were ready to leave to EAMC. It was past 10 am when
the vehicle driven by Paul C geared forward.
On the way to EAMC, Auntie Vangie was
talking with me and Mama. She also gave the money (P10,000+). She promised that
she would make a way to make it P20K.
It was already 12 noon when Mama and I were
taking our meals, packed by Ayen. We were admitted at Room 661.
While eating, I was replying to Auntie
Vangie’s and Jano’s queries. I told them that we’re okay even though we were in
a ward. The nurses were accommodating.
While working for Mama’s urinalysis, I was
replying Happy’s text messages. She has known my examination success, when she
asked if I already took LET.
Later I was purchasing the prescriptions.
It was very hard because EAMC Pharmacy offers limited medical and surgical
materials. Thus, I had to buy in other drugstore.
I looked for Mercury. I did it fast and
tirelessly. I walked and walked until I decided to go to Cubao. There I inquired
in five Mercury drugstores, but they, to, offer limited supplies. Good thing,
Mercury clerk suggested me to go to Bambang (Manila).
I texted Jano. I told him to do the
purchasing because I did not know how to get there. But I was forced to do it
myself after his instruction.
Easily I found Bambang. But then again,
they lacked supplies. I haven’t purchased 3 items. Thus I texted Dr. Gay-ya.
She replied and she told me to go back to the hospital. So I did.
On the way to EAMC, I texted Mj. I
instructed her on what she should do and prepare. I also told her that Jano
would drop by to give her the P5k for Mama.
Auntie Vangie regarded our state again at
8:30. We were, at that time, starving because the doctor told Mama to wait for
his instructions. But I had to but food at 9 pm. I could not bear the hunger
anymore.
Tina, though congratulated me already
yesterday, says ‘We’re so proud of you! You deserved it!”
Padi Glenn and Fortin congratulated me, too
this morning.
I can’t sleep, though I was tired, maybe
because it was noisy. From time to time, nurses were coming in to check the
patients.
I tried to close my eyes after taking a bath.
But I failed. I also read tabloid and answer puzzles. I still failed.
May 6, 2009
Three am, I fed Mama. And it was 4 am when
I fell asleep. Five o’ clock when I got up to treat Mama her breakfast. I also
ate mine.
After that, I started doing preparations. I
also texted Mj. She was already preapring to leave Antipolo. And at past 7 am,
I was waiting for them in the highway.
Seven-thirty, my mag-ina— Mj and Hanna arrived. We immediately dined at the carinderia. It was before Mj looked for
Mama’s ward and before I went at the Eye Center to see Dr. Gay-ya for
instruction.
Past 8, I was on the trip to Taft, manila.
Hanna was with me. She was not allowed to enter the hospital. Like other kids,
whose ages are under 12.
It was very hard to walk with a shoulder
bag, with a daughter on my arm, and with a styro box on my other hand. If only
I knew that I would bring a box… I thought I could carry the cornea on my palm.
However, I still went on until we arrived at EAMC safely and with the cornea.
I was exhausted when I submitted the cornea
to the Optha doctors. Yet I was glad that I arrived on time and that there’s no
any damage happened to the styro box, containing the cornea.
We, except Mama, take lunch at the carinderia. My strength came back again.
However I had to return one item to Mercury Drugstore-Cubao because it was not
needed anymore. Hanna was with me again.
I was doing it fast because I wanted to see
Mama before she was taken to the emergency room. I did a semi-run walking.
Ten minutes before two, I was already
helping the nurses, who are attending Mama. I have to assist Mama in undressing
her clothes.
Mj took Hanna. They were outside the
hospital.
Past two, I started to get nervous. I
prayed. And it was gone. Then I texted Auntie Vangie, Jano, and Taiwan. I
wanted them to pray also.
I waited in the ER’s lobby at 3 pm. After a
long wait, attendant advised me to stay in our ward because the operation would
last for many hours.
I was about to sleep when a prescription
was handed down to me. Thus, I was forced to go outside and buy the needed
medicines.
After that, Mj and I were trying to enter
the hospital. We looked for chances. We waited for visit hour until we have
made an illegal entry at past 4 pm. However in the second floor, the big
security guard angrily stopped us. It made a little scandal. I reasoned out. I
told him that he has bias. I saw children under 12 years old, who has entered
the premise yesterday. Why not my daughter, who is just going to visit a
patient at the eye department ward?
I was very sad. I almost cried. I pity Mj
and Hanna. I did not want them to go home yet because I knew she was tired and
she was feeling dizzy. Besides it was very hot outside.
I was waving my hand while I saw them
leaving EAMC. I knew Mj was very sad, as well, but we cannot do anything, but
to follow the rule.
Past five, I took a rest. I have got only 1
hour sleep last night, so I fell asleep early on Mama’s bed. I got up at 6.
At that time, I was worried that Mama was
still at the ER. I notified Jano, Auntie Vangie, and others. They were worried,
as well.
Before seven, Mama was already at the
Recovery Room. It was a successful operation. Dr. Jaca and Dr. Paez were two of
the doctors, who assisted D. Nepomuceno in operating Mama. I met them at the
elevator area, where Dr. Jaca confirmed that the operation has been okay. I
thanked them.
While texting or replying to Daba, Gleazy,
Aila, and others’ text messages, I was working for the purchase of Mama’s
prescriptions.
Daba and Gleazy have learned about my
success in licensure examination. They both wowed on me. Gleazy kept on
praising me, but I kept humble. Daba told me about alumni homecoming. We were
supposed to have a meeting on Sunday. She also wanted me to become the next
overall alimni president. I disagree because I have no career yet. But she
says, “Atog kw an pag-asa pa cn alumni.
Kya dko2 an tiwala q saimu.”
Ten, I stopped texting. I started to take
personal hygiene works. I also faced Mama’s needs. Then at 12 midnight, I began
catching sleep on the vacant bed.
May 7, 2009
I had a nice sleep, though I woke up twice
to attend to Mama’s needs and demands.
Mama was vomiting. I was afraid that she
has complications. Good thing, nurses were very helpful. They assisted me.
Nine-thirty, Diyang asked if I passed the
LET. I told her the truth. She congratulated me.
Past 10, Mama and I were in the
Opthalmology Room. She was being checked up. She vomited there. Thus she was
given anti-vomit injection, which gave her relief. I also had a lessened task.
I was glad when Mama could see my
silhouette. She also cried for joy.
Past 12 noon, we went back to our ward to
have lunch. Mama was exhausted, but she was quite better now, though we were
forced to come back at the Eye Center at 2 pm. We still did.
It was past 4 when we returned to our ward.
And without further ado, I left Mama. I exchanged the unused injection vial to
our items. I also returned the dextrose that was not used.
I was exhausted. I never had a chance to
take a seat for a long hour. I was not yet finished when Auntie Vangie texted
me. She would be here to visit Mama.
I met her at the elevator area. She brought
us Mc Do food. She also hand-carried Auntie Belen’s letter with P2K cash for
Mama. She conversed with us for about one hour.
I was having my dinner when Ate Celinne
texted me. She invited me to her son’s 7th birthday. I told her my
whereabout and I apologized. I wanted to join, but I could not.
Andy, my co-watcher, approached me at past
9 pm. I was then writing this journal entry. He thought I was writing on a
diary. Later we have a nice conversation that leads to a suggestion of encoding
my writings on a blog site. It is new to me, yet it is interesting. We
exchanged numbers, hoping someday he could help me earn money through blogging.
I stopped writing just to show him that I
am interested to what he is saying. However our conversation was hindered by
the arrival of his girlfriend. Thus, I took a rest. I easily fell asleep.
May 8, 2009
I had a nice sleep though I woke up many
times every 2 hours for Mama’s eye drops. It was quarter to six when I was
awakened by her.
Very early at 8 am, we were already at the
Eye Center. It was past 4 pm, when we were disposed. It was a very anxious
waiting that only leads to disappointment. I thought we were going to be
discharged today. But we still have to stay tonight for another checkup
tomorrow. I told it to Auntie Vangie and Jano.
Past 12 noon, Caroline congratulated me.
She has learned the news from Padi Glenn. She was texting me since yesterday.
She was asking me about how to file in LET and what are the requirements and
application procedure.
Eight-thirty, Flor texted me. She regarded
Mama. Then she told me that she was going home tomorrow because their employer
was not waging them. I pitied her and asked her whereabout, so that I could
fetch her even tonight. She just did not reply.
May 9, 2009
Mama and I prepared ourselves early for her
checkup. At 8 am, we were already at the Eye Center. The checkup was very fast
because we were only three. I mean, they were only three patients in the
Eo/Cornea Department. Dr. Jaca, Dr. Paez, and Dr. Gay-ya devoted their time
even though it was Saturday.
Past 9, we were done at the ED Dept. I then
worked for Mama’s total discharge to that hospital. First I requested for the
total bill. I was surprised when I saw it. It amounted to P8,900+.
While looking for the Medical Social
Service, I notified Auntie Vangie. I know she would give additional money. I
also notified Jano and Mj, though I knew they could not help financially.
I fell in lines three times before I have
completed the payment of bill. It was past two when I fetched Mama and our
things. That time, Auntie Vangie has been notified by me. She also told us to
commute—ride on a taxi through their house because there were no available
driver to get us. Tito Rey, when he brought the P2,000 cash at the EAMC at
11:45 am, was about to fetch us. But due to lunch break, I could not able to
make it so fast. He just left afterwards.
At 3 pm, we were on a taxi to Tandang Sora
already.
Auntie Vangie was glad to see Mama and to
know that the latter could now see. She also acknowledged my effort.
While we were eating, we were conversing. I
could see Auntie Vangie’s happiness from the success of Mama’s corneal
transplant. Her financial help was worth it.
Instead of taking sleep, Mama and I
conversed with Ayen. She enjoyed talking with us. As the result, she gave me
used clothes. It was because Mama asked her to give me. I knew she was just
paying gratitude.
While having merienda, Mama and I were relating our experiences to Ayen and
Auntie Vangie. They enjoyed our stories and anecdotes. I told them that I have
learned a lot and I have been very vocal because of Mama’s blindness.
Mama related also about her feelings that
the doctors in ED/Cornea Department were flirting with me. I corrected her. I
instead called and termed it as ‘attachment.’ The ophtalmologists of Eye Center
are all attached to their patients and even with the watchers.
I related to them how the doctors are
treating me and how they have learned about my profession.
Past six, I left Auntie Vangie’s house. I
was going to Rancho.
It was 7:30 when I reached my in-laws’
house. I missed my kids so much. They surely missed me, too, though they could
not say it.
May 10, 2009
Before seven, I texted all the mothers who
have mobile numbers on my phonebook. I simply greeted them “Happy Mothers’
Day!” Ate Quennie thanked me immediately. Some replied late. Some did not.
One of the late response was Ate Celinne.
She also updated me about the party that was attended by our friends. She hoped
I was there. Then she congratulated me for passing the LET.
Auntie Emole also responded late, but her
text message was truthful. She wanted to see Mama.
Before 2 pm, Mama and I left to Sta. Lucia
East Grand Mall. I bought a brand new N6300 cellphone. The money I used in
purchasing it was the amount I have saved from Mama’s
hospitalization/operation. It could also be categorized a ‘kickback.’ Thus I
have to keep the newly purchased mobile phone to my family, especially to Jano.
If only he did not contribute P5,000 on the budget, I could flaunt it on him.
It was 4 pm when we got home. I excitedly
discovered the features of my new phone. I found it nice. However the charger
was not fit. I have to exchange it tomorrow. Karma, it may be…
Pardon me, oh, Lord.
May 11, 2009
Past seven, I left Rancho. I arrived very
early at the eye center. I just waited there for so long. It was before eleven
when Mama was dropped off by Auntie Vangie.
Mama was accommodated immediately, but it
lasted for almost two hours. I was fretful due to hunger and anxiety.
I exchanged the defective mobile phone that
I newly purchased yesterday. It was not charging. Good thing about it, though
the item was not a brand new one, was I could show it to Jano. He would not
think that I bought it. I would just fabricate a bit.
Before three, we were already home. Flor
was there, but there’s no food. We instead eat our ‘dala’—hopia. I missed my stay in the hospital.
Three-thirty I went downhill and picked
cashew seeds. I have only gathered few. It’s because there were intruders, who
did the picking-up. They also spoiled the unripe fruits.
I took a nap before 5:45 pm.
Amy congratulated me this afternoon. She
saw the LET result in the internet. She was very glad for me. She says, “Nangigirabo ako.”
Mj texed me at 6:30. She says, “Oi, pg free k sunduin u c hnna, inaaway lng
d2.”
I said I could not do it because I would
still be occupied by Mama’s checkup. I said,
“Awayin u rn ang umaaway s knya… Bkt hindi u mbantayan?” I got mad. I also
pitied Hanna. But I could do nothing about it. She must learn how to depend our
children and fight for their rights.
Before 11 pm, I was awakened by Carla
Geoca’s text message. It has been a long time since she last texted me. Thus,
even though I was so sleepy, I replied to her. But I could not make it for the
second time.
May 12, 2009
Jano secretly told me about what happened to
Tito Sam this morning. He did not want me to tell it to Mama because it might
harm her newly operated left eye.
I did not say anything. I knew why it
happened to Tito Sam. However, though, I considered it a karma, I still felt
sad.
If only Flor did not give hints. I would
not tell the truth to Mama. It was past eleven when she persisted. I was forced
to tell it. I just reminded her that crying might harm her.
I asked Divina what they have conferred
about in the alumni meeting. She said that it was postponed. Then she
congratulated me again for passing the LET. It was indeed confirmed according
to our classmate—Jocelyn Tamboong, who failed the exam.
After thanking her. I told her that I did
not know how to start my career. And though, she responded late, it was worth
it. That, she says, “Don’t worry
mkkpgcmula k rin nyan. Pg wui u d2 ipakila2 lta s principal s skul jst n case
my plan u mg aply d2.”
I was so glad to hear that. It reflected on
my reply. I assured her that I really wanted to teach in Bulan. And she
repeated the help she wanted to give me.
Diyang came in at past 12 noon. She thought
Mama did not know yet about the bad news. Later we talked about it. She’s still
considering it as the Antolin’s form of revenge. But in my mind, I believe it
was a lesson to be learned.
Past 4 pm, I went downhill to collect
cashew seeds. I did it for almost 30 minutes.
Past 5 pm, Ate Quennie phoned on me. She
asked about the incident and Tito Sam. I tried to answer her queries though I
have no idea. Thus, to divert the conversation, I asked her about them. I have
learned about the terrible flood caused by the typhoon ‘Dante.’ Later I
announced that I passed the licensure exam. She was so happy. I could hear it,
as well as Papay Benson and Aileen.
May 13, 2009
Mama and I left to East Avenue at past
6:30. We arrived there early, but we waited too long. I thought we could go
home early, but at 12 noon, we were still there.
Because of Dr. Jara’s joke that if Mama’s
yet got infection due to her sticky eyelids, I would be banned in that center,
I have hurt Mama’s feelings. It was when I answered “Pabor po iyan sa akin para iba naman makasama dito ni Mama.”
Mama told me later that it was the second
time I have hurt her. The first time was when she wasn’t yet operated.
According to her, she cried.
Later she told me that I must start saving
for my fare in going to Bulan. I knew it was interconnected to my word “Pabor…”
She also wanted to pay me for my sacrifice.
It was past 5 pm when we were disposed at
the EAMC. We were scheduled to go back on May 20. Thus I decided to fetch
Hanna. Mama agreed on my idea. So I left her first near Jollibee-Cogeo. It was
past 7 when I got to my in-laws’ house. Hanna was already ready.
Bacause of Mama’s money (or Taiwan’s help for
Mama), I could buy Hanna milk and Zildjian’s diaper and pasalubong. Though I do not have income, I could provide the needs
of my children. It was maybe because God blesses me always.
It was minutes to eight when we got home. I
was exhausted. But I could still reply to Auntie Leny, Ate Quennie and others.
Auntie Leny asked me about Mama. After
telling her about Mama, I opened up about Tito Sam’s hospitalization. But I
told her that my knowledge was limited. I also explained it to Ate Quennie.
However later I texted Auntie Vangie. She replied late, but she gave me the
info I needed. Thus I have updated Auntie Leny.
May 14, 2009
I was doing laundry at past 6 am. Before I
finished it, I have done other things like cleaning the bathroom and watering
the plants. It was past 8:30 when I took breakfast. I collected cashew seeds,
also, at the middle of my laundry.
After Auntie Vangie asked how or who
notified Papay Benson about what happened to Tito Sam. She asked “Ncmulan u n b maghnap ng job o uuwi p u s
Bulan pra s requirements at klan u uuwi kng skali Klngan nga u umuwi?”
I said I could leave to apply because of
Mama and she permitted me to go to Bulan on June.
I wondered why she did not reply. However,
at 6 pm, she texted me. She asked, “Kng s
Juune p u uuwi s Bulan pasukan n un bka huli na hind n u mtnggap s plagay u?”
I explained my plan and why I have to go to
Bulan soon. I included the terms ranking, DepEd, Legazpi, and demo. I showed
and assured her that I was determined to get a teaching job in Bulan for my
family and for those who believed in me and helped me.
She wished and hoped for my success and her
last words are “Hope so! Thank u too 4
being caring 2 ur Mama. God bless u!”
May 15, 2009
Before I went downhill to collect cashew
seeds, Randy Calampiano texted me. He asked me if I already have a job. Later
we were talking about the teaching job we talked about before. He then wanted
me to pass TOR and PRC certification that I passed the 2009 LET. He also
demanded me to apply today. But I could not do it this day since I have no
requirements yet. Besides I decided to go to Bulan this June. If I had that
teaching job in his school, I might not find a teaching career in Bulan as
early as I want. Thus I just told him that I would work for my papers first. He
said okay.
Diyang came in before we took our lunch.
She talked about several things. Mama and I accommodated her singsong, while
she enjoyed our words. Her presence postponed our sleeping time. We just did it
when she left at two. However, minutes after her departure, Auntie Belen
arrived. My sleep was distracted. I just pretended I was sleeping until Hanna
woke up.
Auntie Belen was here to meet Tito Sam, who
was just discharged from being confined in the hospital. She also visited Mama.
May 16, 2009
I could not sleep tightly after I got up to
pee at 6 am. Mama was already awake. She needed my service, thus I decided to
wake up. Later I fried the baloney, the ‘dinaing
na bangus,’ and the leftover rice for our breakfast.
Healthy breakfast started my day! I then
found myself doing gardenworks.
Past 9 am, Mj texed me. She says, “My plano k p b tmira sa Polot? Sabi kc
T.Jay bbgyan nya q.”
Alas! I have no load. I could not tell her
my answer that my plan is still the same. She did not know yet that on June I
would be leaving to Bulan to start my career-finding.
Quarter to 1 pm, Randy texted me. “Mg report kna Monday 7 am.”
I did not know how to tell him that I do
not want the job he’s giving me anymore. I cannot afford to turn his effort
into nothing. But I have to tell the truth.
May 17, 2009
We were watching tv when Jano and his mag-ina came in. My day was a disaster!
I could not move freely even when Taiwan and Yoshimi arrived at 10:30 am.
Three pm, I texted Randy. I apologized for
I could not pursue job application in the school, where he teachers. However at
9 pm, he told me to pass TOR first. I explained my point and my plan. He also
did. I did not know if he’s concerned or what. All I knew is he has a point. I
must gain experience first. Thus I told him “Pg
ngbago isip qm txt n lng kta uli. D p nman cguro huli ang lhat. Nggukuhan p kc
aq ngaun e. Dgdg p ang pressure ng pmilya q. Gsto q rn mgwork s private pra
mksuporta… Bhla n… hnda q muna mga
reqremnts q.”
This thought made me sleepless. I did not
know what to do. I asked God to help me decide.
May 18, 2009
Past 7 am, I texted Ate Che. I said, “Ate
Che, ngugukuhan aq. Bka kaw n ang mkksagot s mga tanong q. Kc d q alam kung pwd
n aq mgpa-ranking kht wla p xperience at khit wlang PT… My ng-advice skn n
mg2ro dw mna aq s prvate suppsd 2 b, June aq uwi ng Bulan.”
Here’s her reply: “Kung s pwde, pwedeng pwde k n mgparanking ung nga lng talo k ng my mga
xperience. Ung PT mnsan hinhnap miinsan dri. Atin lng 2 ha actually xperience can
be made by dose authorize person. Un kung my kilala k at mppakiusapan u.
Mggawan k xperience from 1-5 yrs. Oks n un. Submission n yta dis week. June 5
interview. Un ang dating steps n alam q. Dnt know now. Wat district are u
planning 2 apply? North or South?” Then she gave me advice—a safe advice,
after I asked her: “Kung ako ikaw, apply
ako diyan. If my pera ako pauwi apply ako d2. Oh di lhat ng opportunity ala
lumampas. Diskarte lng yan. F pareho 2mawag. Kung san gganda future q di don
ako. Je je je.”
I then told her what Divina told me before.
Her answer did not satisfy me. I wanted more opinions. Thus I texted Ate
Quennie. It was the same question. But before she could reply, Daba’s response
that she has not sent me last night, arrived. She gave me the schedule of
submission of papers and interview. I was not able to reply because I ran out
of load.
I consulted Mama about my problem. I told
her that Randy was persisting me to submit requirements. She says, “Ikaw ang bahala.” I still did not know
what to do.
Ate Quennie’s responses arrived at 2:20 pm,
when I did not have load. She says:
1.
“Mas mabuti sna kng nkaparank u na while waiting. Pwd kwa ng iba.
Kya lang tpos n sked ng ranking.”
2.
“Kya teach u muna sa private pra my points u s teaching exp.”
3.
Bsta don’t wori anytime any wer u can teach. Asikasuhin u lng
license.”
4.
“Submision of application s March. Demo, interview, exam English
proficiency s April. Result May or June.”
5.
“Ipon k rin cert s mga cminars attend u.”
At
8 pm, Mj and I text-conversed. We talked about my plan. She agreed upon
it. But I assured her that it would be for good.
May 19, 2009
My upper back was aching when I got up.
Thus, I did not go downhill to pick out cashew seeds. I just did some household
chores. It was 2 pm when I did.
The proceeds of my cashew seeds would be
used for my fare to Bulan. I was worrying that I might not make even P500
sales. I have to have more than that amount because I will pay Kuya Bambi for
the pants he sold on me.
May 20, 2009
Before seven, Mama, Hanna, and I left home.
Mama decided to ride a jeep to Anonas alone while I sent Hanna home.
I missed Zildjian, however I could not
spend long hour in my in-laws’ house. I just kissed and cuddled him. He wanted
to come with me when I was about to leave. So he was crying when I did.
It was nine when we reached EAMC and 10 am
when we were called to enter the eye center. Immediately after having a
watcher’s pass, I went to Quezon City Hall Post office. I mailed something
about Mama’s receipt for cornea from the eye center.
I was surprised when Mama was discharged
early at 12 noon. It maybe because the doctors were gladdened to see her eye’s
improvement.
Before two, we were home. I was very sleepy
and tired, thus, after doing eye drop ritual to Mama I tried to take a nap. I
failed, however, to catch sleep because Flor and Darryl had a noisy
conversation.
Three, I went downhill and picked out
cashew seeds.
It was 7:30 pm when I replied to Tina’s
text. After exchanges of regards, she opened up about her breast cyst. I gave
her assurance that she would be healed by God.
May 21, 2009After texting Christian Garilao
and asking him if there’s a hiring in RRS marketing, where he’s working, Randy
texted me. He insisted again that I must teach first in a private school. At
first, I objected. I told him my decision. I also told him my worry that my
salary would only be spent for boarding house. He said something that made me
agree.
Before 4 pm, I left to rancho. I typed my
resume at 6 pm.
May 22, 2009
At 5:30 am, I left to Taguig. Through
texting with Randy, I found the Good Shepherd Academy of Taguig, Inc. at 8 am.
Good thing, he is a fast texter. I never had hard time looking for the place.
Randy is very accommodating. He treated me
coffee and bread, while I was answering the written essay examination. Then he
oriented me about the job and the institution.
I also made lesson plans in Mathematics.
I had no nervousness in my body while I was
waiting for the school owner’s arrival. However, when she came in, I started to
shiver. She was with her brother and friend of his brother, who are both police
officers. They were going to witness my demo teaching.
The owner interviewed me first. Then my
demo started. That time, my body was quaking so hardly. I almost lost my breath
even during I was doing my introduction. I was trembling, as if, I have not
experienced yet a demonstration teaching before. The truth is it is my first
time to teach children while observers are watching and listening. I was like in
hot pan. I could hardly talk. I also tottered many times. Then I got mistaken
in giving instructions.
These flaws were written by the observers
on their comment papers. But they were all constructive criticisms, for me. The
owner explained it to me, too, that I must not be offended.
At past 3:30, Ma’am Myra, one of the
owners, instructed me about my work. I was hired pala. I was very glad even though I had many flaws in demonstration
I have impressed the owners by my answers in essay test.
Ma’am Myra says, “Swak na swak sa panlasa.” She has given those questions to the
applicants, but my answers were the most appropriate responses.
I was very proud of myself. I also learned
from that nerve-cracking job application.
Before the owner left. I have seen her
kindness. She likes me, as an applicant and as her new employee. She told me
also that I would be given somebody to be tutored, so that it could help to my
finances.
I stayed for many hours after Ma’am Myra
left. I talked to Sir Randy about my plan of going to Bulan first, since June
15 is the resume of the classes. He permitted me after his few objections.
I conversed also with a summer math teacher
there. His being a UP student interests me, since it was my frustration. I told
him or asked him that if I need an answer for my Math problem, I would approach
him. He agreed but he humbled himself.
At five, I left GSATI with happiness in my
heart. I considered it a success because job application I have been through
was not easy. I was deliberately evaluated.
On the way home, I texted Epr about my new
job. He’s so happy, as well.
Later I told Auntie Vangie about it. She
greeted me. Then she asked how much my salary would be. I said P4,000, though
I’m not sure if I could receive it. It is still conditional. However I was
hopeful that O could get it.
I took Auntie Vangie’s point of view about
my salary, free lodging, and tutorial opportunities. She says, “Ok na ok.”
Then I told her about my plan of going to
Bulan. Thus she has had a chance to tell me about her need of new housemaid. I
promised immediately to look for her new maid. Good thing is she would give me
fare.
While I was on the trip, my wisdom tooth,
head, and body were aching. When I could not take the pain anymore, I took
Gardan 500 at Pasig Palengke.
I got home at past 8 pm. I gladly related
my experience and my success to Mj. I think, she also was gladdened of it.
Nanay was there, as well. I hoped, she felt the same way, too.
At past 10 pm, I took another pain reliever
to heal my toothache.
May 23, 2009
At 5 am, I was already wide awake. I spent
almost 2 and a half hours thinking. I thought of my trip to Bulan. I made
decisions and plans.
At past nine, I left Rancho. Zildjian was
crying when I went away. He wanted to come with me. I also wanted to, but he
would just cry when he misses Mj.
I decided to stay in Bautista because the
outing was moved on Monday. I did not like to stay for a long time with my
in-laws.
When I got home, Auntie Belen, Kuya Ijet
and their maid were in the compound. They have learned about my newly-found
job. Mama related it to them. As usual, she’s proud of me.
Auntie Belen advise me to improve my
personality. Mama thought that it’s my physical that Auntie was talking about.
It is the way I communicate pala.
Thus Mama told her that I already a vocal person due to our lakad in the eye center or EAMC.
At past 12 noon, I texted Ate Quennie. I
told her about my new job. She just did not reply. But I knew she’s happy for
me.
Later, Aprilroz and I conversed through
texting. She has learned, as well, about my new job. Jokingly, she demanded for
blowout. I also kid her.
When Jano and Die arrived, the former
immediately asked if I really have a new job as a teacher. Then he asked for my
salary. At first, be belittled it. But when he has learned that I would do it
just for experience’s sake, he changed his attitude. I made him understand that
I was taking as a preparation for my career in a public school.
May 24, 2009
I got up early to charge the battery of my
phone and to reply JayR’s text message. I asked him if he’s living in Bicutan.
Then I told him about mu new job. I could have a neighbor while I am teaching
in Taguig.
While doing laundry, Daba and I were
texting each other. We first talked about the alumni homecoming. I have learned
that there’s still no final program and activities made. Then we talked about
my possibility of being hired in a public school. She’s so willing to help me.
She’s also complimented me twice. She’s looking forward to being my co-teacher.
So do I.
It was past 10 am when I finished washing.
Later I started cooking.
Auntie Belen and Kuya Eric were here today.
I conversed with the latter. He asked me about my new job, since he knew it. I
could see his interest in teaching. I could feel that he has given me high
level of respect, now that I am a degree holder and about to have a license.
He also mingled with us—Flor and I—in
playing cards.
At six pm, when Auntie Belen and Kuya Eric
went back home, I had a chance to converse with Ate Donna. We have had a nice,
dynamic conversation. I have learned from her stories. And I was sure I have
imparted some of my life stories, as well.
Ate Che texted me again at past 7:30 pm.
She was insisting that I must treat them. I kid her. I told her that I
postponed my trip to Bulan. However after many text message exchanges I was
forced to ask her, “Inuman o kainan?”
She never chose one. She says, “Whatever, basta libre.”
After our text-conversation, I started to
think of money to enable me to treat them on May 30.
Mj wanted me to be there at their house
tonight, but I could not leave because I did not know if the outing will be
realized tomorrow. I just notified her of my stay here in Bautista.
May 25, 2009
Though I had lack of sleep, I still got up
early. I did not know why I could not sleep long and tight. All I knew was my
tooth was aching.
At 8 am, Mj confirmed that the outing will
be held tomorrow morning. So I have to be in Rancho today.
Before I left Bautista, I made sure that Mama
is okay. She also suggested that we instead see each other at St. Joseph on
Wednesday. She’s going to practice commuting alone.
At past seven, I was already at my in-laws’
house. Later, randy texted me—asking my where-about. I knew, he just checking if
I was really interested to work at GSATI. If he only knew. I was very excited.
In fact. I thought of it last night. I was imagining that I was teaching the
children already.
May 26, 2009
At six am, I was also wide awake. Everybody
was preparing for the family outing today. However, I did nothing. I just
stayed on bed.
At 8:30 am, we were all at JamesVille
Resort. The place is so nice and very private. The kiddie pools enticed the
children. Hanna swam immediately, while Zildjian was afraid to do so. However
he did after a while.
I took a plunge on the pool after lunch. I
was half-naked. I just stayed there until no one was watching me. I was ashamed
of my body.
I enjoyed the pool swimming. Since Zildjian
was born, it was the very first time that we join outing altogether. It was
great! I was sure my kids could not forget this day.
Aileen asked through text when I will go
back to Bulan. I told her that I wanted to be there before town fiesta, but the
problem is the fare.
May 27, 2009
At 5 am, I was awakened by my alarm.
However it was 5:30 when Mj got up to make hot coffee for me. And it was 3:45
when I left to Anonas.
I started waiting for Mama at 6:30 am. Flor
notified me that Mama left Bautista at 5:30 am. Time passed by, but Mama did
not arrive yet. Thus it worried me. The doctors might get angry again if we
arrive late.
At nine, I decided to go to East Avenue
Medical Center. I believed Mama was there because my heart was not pumping
hard. I knew she is safe and she just wanted to get the lowest number of the
registration for checkup queue, so that she would be checked up early.
Before 10, I was already seen Mama. I felt
relief seeing her. And since she’s safe and kicking, I left to SFDM. I just
gave her P100 for food.
In Bodino, I waited for almost 2 hours to
Auntie Vangie’s arrival. While waiting, I skimmed some magazines in the office.
Ate Nelia was there, too.
When my aunt came, she handed me P2,000 in
all. The P1,000 is for me and the other is for the maid I could hire.
Then after lunch, I talked with Ate April a
bit, as well as with the finishing girls, such as Rachie, Abeng, and Ate
Nellie. They have learned for the first time that I was a board passer and that
I am about to be a teacher in a private school in Taguig in June.
Past 0ne, I left the garments factory. I
got to the eye center before 2 pm. Mama was still waiting for her schedule for
the next checkup.
Past two, we left EAMC with the new
schedule. I told Mama while we were on the way home that Auntie Vangie did not
give her money. But I was given. I explained to her my need of financial, which
she understood. I bought her milk and biscuits, and gave her fare.
I hailed a PUJ for her before I went to
Cubao. I then uttered prayer for Mama’s safe trip going home.
At four pm, the bus, where I was riding
moved forward.
May 28, 2009
At past 7 am, I got to Papay Benson’s
house. Everybody was surprised seeing me. I hoped they got excited to have me
for almost two weeks.
After revealing them the reason of my
presence, I conversed with Boboy and Skye. I also notified Daba and asked her
when we must meet for the alumni homecoming activities. She said on June 7.
Boboy and I did marketing at 9:30. It was
after I mounted ‘Wanted’ banner. I also talked with Celoy so that he could
notify LenLen about the job vacancy.
I helped in frying fish. Ate Jennilyn did
the cooking of our lunch.
Later I conversed with Mj and Ate Che. The
latter wanted me to treat them tomorrow instead on May 30. But I did not
promise her. I just gave her hope that I was eager to treat them by telling her
about my search for four housemaids.
At past 5, I went to Bulasu. I talked with
Ate Quennie about PRC. I inquired about how to get the important papers at PRC.
And what are the steps in being a permanent teacher in a public school. We also
talked about related things.
I spent almost 3 hours conversing with her.
I ate dinner there. I left at 8 pm because I wanted to join RGCC Alumni
Homecoming at Plaza Rizal. But I did not commit because I have no budget to
treat them.
I was about to go to RGCC when I have
learned from Tonton that alumni reunion at RGCC has been held last, last night.
Thus, I preferred to sleep early.
May 29, 2009
At six am, I was already doing in Aileen’s
garden. She has unfinished business in the garden, so I helped her in
reorganizing the plants and pots. Besides, my bonsai trees contributed to the
disorderliness.
At 8 am, we were done. Later I went to kamalig. I stayed there until 9:40. When
I got home, I cooked viands and rice.
At two o’ clock, I helped Delon in
installing his side car to his motorcycle. We were done at past 4 pm. I took a
bath later, and went upstairs to nap.
I let Aileen did the cooking. I did not
help in the kitchen.
At 7 pm, I accommodated three women. They inquired
about the hiring of maids. One of the applicants was very eager to work, but I
did not hire her yet because she would talk first to other three applicants,
who are her neighbors.
Padi Glenn texted me. He said that he would
be in Bulan tomorrow. He also directly told me that he has a short budget and
asked me to treat him. He says, “Kaw,
Padi mapainum.” When I replied, I abruptly agreed upon his request. But I
have not told him that I could only shoulder the expenses, he and I could
consume. I did not want other’s presence while we drink.
At ten o’ clock, I prayed to God. I later
closed my eyes to sleep.
May 30, 2009After having coffee, I went
back upstairs and cleaned my belongings. I also kept them so that Boboy could
not be enticed to omit anything from my stuff, since he’s leaving today.
Later I helped in doing kitchenworks.
At nine o’ clock, Amy and I text-conversed.
She is in Bulan,a s well. Then, she invited me to come in their house today.
She would introduce me to her fiance’ also.
Padi Glenn notified me of his arrival to
Bulan. I confirmed our jamming tonight.
At three, I was cooking champorado. Doing so devastated me. It
hindered my lakad. I was about to
watch Padaraw Festival street dancing, but due to rain, I had to stay for a while,
which caused me to be commanded by Papay Benson to cook.
It was past 4 when Eking, Skye, and I went
to the venue. On the way, I met MeAnn Gloriane. She asked for my number.
Though it was drizzling, I still watched
Padaraw. I enjoyed watching the street dancers. Some of them touched me. Some
did not. Overall, the show was successful, despite the bad weather. It was
great!
It was sis pm when it ended. I started
roaming around the tiangge stores. I
also texted Padi Glenn, but he seemed busy. I wanted to go to Amy’s house, but
she did not reply. I also implied to Aprilroz that I wanted to dine with them
tonight. She merely says, “Wara man kmi
handa.”
Thus, I decided to walk home at 7:30. And
at 8 pm, I went to Ate NingNing’s store. There I was seen by Gigi. He invited
me to their house. Since it was bispera
tonight, I did not fail him. We drink beer. Later I apologized to Padi Glenn. I
instead moved it tomorrow night.
Gigi and I had a nice conversation. His
sister-in-law—Analyn, who’s Amy’s cousin was there, too. She also joined us in
our conversation. She complimented my intellect. Since she studied at RGCC, as
well. I have also learned that Amy enrolled at RGCC to take up BSC. Like what I
took up. I thought, she was applying for job abroad.
Dave joined us later.
At eleven, we were done drinking. I thanked
them before I left.
In Papay Benson’s kamalig, I resorted to sleep because I felt ashamed to knock on the
door. I was very surprised where there were three teenagers there. I did not
know them. I thought Bugok was there. Though they look strange, I still sleep
over there. I have no choice. Y head was aching. Good thing, I have got a beach
towel on the cloth line at the house before I went there. It helped me a lot in
making me fall asleep easily.
May 31, 2009
I wanted to stay until 8 am in the kamalig, but the teenagers were still
asleep. Thus at 7, I went home. I paid Kuya Bambi P100. Then I conversed with
Ate Ningning. I was just waiting the nine o’ clock time so that I could leave.
However I was directed to do marketing by Papay Benson. I had no choice, but to
postpone my lakad.
At 10:30, I was done cooking. I ate brunch
later. I have to secure my stomach though I am going to Amy’s house, which
would offer me variety of food.
Past eleven, I was already in Managa-naga, particularly
at Amy’s house. She entertained me well. She introduced me also to her fiancé.’
And after lunch, we conversed. Anabelle—Amy’s cousin, joined us. She acted as a
jester though out the conversation.
Amy’s sister asked me, as well about LET. I
have learned that she is a BeEd graduate, who wanted to take a LET. I promised
her to lend my reviewer.
At 3, I was home. Later, after merienda, I tried to nap, but I failed.
At 4:30, I was fleeing from cooking. I went
to Pon-od Bridge. I stayed there until 6 pm. I also texted Padi Glenn,
fabricating that I was busy cooking, and that I cannot leave. Since he texted
me beforehand that he could not join me tonight because he was invited by Bing
to drink, I had an excuse to back out from my promise. I did not show him my
eagerness though her already invite Christian.
I was sorry but I was just being practical.
I was indeed having a problem on budget for a month of working (teaching) in
Taguig.
Later I was waiting for Gigi’s invitation. He
told me last night that we were going to drink tonight, but I have not seen his
face. So at 7:30, I watched tv at Aileen’s house. I did it for an hour. Then I
slept early. Tomorrow, Daba might text me. We might have a meeting for alumni
homecoming.
