MY JOURNAL (February 8-14, 2006)

February 8, 2006

          I took in my hot coffee at eight, thinking of what the best thing to do today. Writing and reading are productive activities, but I wanted to help Mama in doing chores and in preparing and thinking of meals. I couldn't help but to see all of them experiencing hardship of everyday life. In fact, we have no breakfast today. Yet, Mama is looking for a way. She keeps on moving ---gardening, etc.

          Thus, I went outside after taking in coffee and helped her. I taught her gardening, planting, and landscaping ideas. Eleven, when we entered the house with happiness and contentment in our hearts. I realized, gardening soothes one's inflamed heart.

          Then, I read a "Good Housekeeping" booklet, entitled "Get Money Wise", the best advice from Good Housekeeping. Actually it's a girl book, yet it interests me, and I found it educational. I've learned a lot here--- from growing money to saving every centavo to earning more.

          Next, I wrote comedy skit entitled "Green Card". It was my third skit since I was here.

          Eleven, when I turned yhe TV off and slept. Then I prayed for usual prayers. I proposed to God that he must make me win in lottery.


February 9, 2006

          Yesternight (6:00), my back and nape were aching. And, when I woke up it's still there. I supposed these were due to all-day and all-night lying down and watching television.  

          Before I watch "This is your Day", a Benny Hinn program, my stomach was aching due to "breakfast-lessness". However, during the revitalizing program, it was gone. God is great. Really!

          I never expect that Mj and Hobee would come today. I was so happy seeing my baby. She was now happier than the last time I saw her.

          Nanay and Tatay would attendnteh meeting in Boso-Boso that was why Baby Marge was here.

          Mj, I guess, was enticing me to go with them in Rancho saying that Calove is expected to arrive at Feb. 14. In fact, I was excited...to eat stateside chocolates!

          I went with them by Tito Jun's car..

          Prayer Concern, tonight: Calove's safe and early arrival from USA, Jenny's safe pregnancy and Elizaga's and Espinosa's financial blessings.



February 10, 2006

          I was still sleepy when I got up to attend Hanna's playing. I must be double careful because Nicole is here. she's so 'malikot' that she might hurt my Baby Beautiful.

          While taking care of Baby Marge and the radio was on, I heard familiar song. i didn't know the title, the artist as well, but I knew it was Efear's favorite. I remember him. The song goes like this: "I'm sick of this life? I just wanna scream/How could this happened to me.." I like the song too.

          And, I noticed that whenever I was here in Espinosa's house, I remember my house in Polot, then homesickness and worry follow. Haay! When will I be there?

          Hanna is well now. Her frequent pooing was gone. I just hope her amoebiasis would be healed too. She only has to drink a lot of fluid (water) so that she'll be re-hydrated, and her skin turns smooth again.

          She could now stand on the crib. And I could see her cravings for solid food. In fact, she had eaten eight pieces of Marie biscuits in one eating or sitting.

          I wrote "Magulang," a comedy skit, at past six.

          Of course, praying before sleeping is a must. I thanked God for his blessings of life.


February 11, 2006

          While I was still laying down the bed, I have heard Nanay, Tatay, Elek and Meann talking about pawning jewelries. I was scared they would know that Topaz ring of Mj was already pawned. Then, Nanay reminded it to me. It was a shame!

          Thank you, Lord! They had pawned pair of earrings and a ring, though Mj's Topaz earrings was rejected. Never mind my disappointment, at least we would have food today. I told Mj to pawn hr gold earrings for Hanna's milk.

          I waited Mj to decide whether to pawn it or not. I told and enticed her twice, but she rejected my proposal. According to her, what would happen next?

          Few hours ago, she announced that Hanna's milk was good for today. What can I do? I replied. Then, six o'clock, I started to be quiet. I was so irate on her selfishness. I have reminisced, before, when she was pregnant, I have had pawned my cellphone for our budget. And, today, she preferred to save and use her earrings rather than Baby Marge's needs.

          Tomorrow, we will go to Bautista to attend Lorenz Flores' birthday, but I suspect it will be postponed.

          "I'm sorry, God, I've been so moody today."


February 12, 2006

          We're all awaken by Lola's call. According to her, they are going to Boso-Boso. Then, Nanay told Mj tompack Hanna's stuffs. I was secretly glad. I thought it will be postponed.

          Eight when we arrived at Bautista. Geraldine and Jano were glad seeing my baby. At the same time, I was so happy that we have plenty of food and stocks, good for two or three days.

          Ten, when Jano and his gal left. I thanked God for we would have freedom to do whatever we wanted to do in this house, like watching TV all day long, etc..

          Quarter to three, the car with Tatay, Nanay, Lola, Tiyo Boy and Tiyo Ruben arrived. We served them snacks. Thanks God, Mj was given P20 by Nanay and P2o again by Lola for her fare tomorrow morning.

          Hanna Margaret would have a hepa vaccination tomorrow.

          When they gone home, Mj and I prepared ourselves in going to Marc Lorenz's 1st birthday. I was not supposed to attend because I'm shy and were not yet in good condition, but Mama won't go so as Flor Rhina who was invited to go swimming at the nearby resort. Thus, I was forced to go down there. Although, we have no gift, we still went on.

           There, Roy and his 'mag-ina', so as April and her daughter, Denise were there. They called Hanna on my name--- Poray. It was proven that Hobee is my resemblance. No wonder!

           We're entertained by April. We talked about her daughter, my baby, their life and our life. I didn't think it was just a plasticism. Auntie Helen talked to me for a few minutes, proposing to me the possibility of me to be hired in Infinite Enterprises if I will only apply. I said, I will go home in Bulan

          Good thing, Tito Ben did not annoy me. He's been good though his drunk.

          I told and promised Tintin that I will present our gift the next week, while she was preparing the food to be given to Mama.

          Then, we have been taken a picture. Few minutes later, we bade goodbye.

          Hanna was holding her lavender balloon when it blasted. She was given another one. It was white.

          Jano did not arrive...

          I forgot to pray. "I'm sorry, Lord."


February 13, 2006

          Seven, when I finally got up. Hanna was playing. I greeted her, as always, Good Morning. She was so happy and has a nice smile.

          I decided not to go with Mj.

          Eight-past, when Hanna and Mj left. Hanna has to go because today is her vaccination day, not to mention Calove Family's arrival on Feb. 14, midnight.

          I up-nailed and ripped off the makeshift ceilings in the kitchen. It was due to Jano's request. Then, I cut my own hair that turned nice. Mama complimented me.

          Next, watching TV till "Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Challenge;" I didn't watch "Kapamilya Cinema" because I felt a drive to do something. I wanted to do artwork, but I could not because I have no materials. Thus, I repair the bench instead.

          We have no viand tonight. Mama just cooked instant noodles with egg. When Jano arrived, he had no viand on his hands. What more tomorrow?

          I asked God to protect Jenny's pregnancy and make her safe till she gave birth. I also prayed for other things like forgiveness of sins. I praised Him for He is great, kind, and faithful.



February 14, 2006

          I knew we have no food for breakfast. So, I sleep again until 9:30. I thanked God for the day---beautiful day. I told Him that I am not fretful, and I am contented for what I or we have.

          It is Valentine's Day today, pala.

          Ten, I wrote "Haligi ng Tahanan", a comedy skit.

          While watching "Homeboy", I was manicuring my fingernails. Then, the show's topic sank into my head, yet it did not make in love. I was 'kilig' to the couple guests, but it doesn't mean I would apply it to Mj. I'm still afraid to give my all to a girl. Marie Jaye truly stole my heart, and I am still suffering from its lost.

          "Lord God, please understand me. You know I have it inside me, I just can't give and show it."

          One of the problems here in Bautista is water. Like today, we're waiting for a truck that is selling water, but no one comes. Thus, I haven't had a bath.

          I've learned important lesson today, from Jano's words, actually bad words for Flor Rhina. He was so mad to the latter. He thought she didn't follow his command last night. He had called her "hayop" and "boba" just for bolo, asking by Diana back.

          Jano, I realized, is really a "padalus-dalos" person. I have proven it already, not to mention Papa's decease. "Forgive him, oh Lord."