MY JOURNAL (January 29-31, 2006)

January 29, 2006

          The plan of going to Boso-Boso was postponed due to Tatay's aching tooth. He has no sleep within 24 hours thus driving might be affected.

          Six thirty-five AM, while Mj is sleeping, Hanna is playing. She saw Mj's wristwatch. She crawled to get it. I covered it with her sweater. I was delighted by her perseverance to look for it though I changed her position. She has also a good memory. I kept it again under my pillow, then she looked for it tirelessly. She's a smart girl, really!

          Past 7:30, I put her to sunlight. I've learned that morning sun ray is good for cough. We're there for more than 5 minutes.

          "Kung Hei Fat Choi!" Jeng greeted me. What? I thought yesterday was the real day of Chinese New Year... Hmp! Nothing is different!

          Hanna's sickness alarmed me. She has fever and her frequent poopooing came back, not to mention her cough. Thus, she's crying frequently and not in the mood to play and to laugh.

          Mj recounted her last night dream about winning 5 digits lotto. Reverse is no one, even a single digit matched our bet. It frustrates me!

          I'm sad, for Hanna has almost no milk to drink. "God bless us. Provide her milk. She doesn't deserve to starve. You know I couldn't do nothing right now but to hope and have faith with You. Amen."

          Though, one of the Feng Shui experts advised not to take a bath during New Year, I still did. What's the connection of bathing to fate? Hmp! They were just fooling the Chinese people and Buddhists. God didn't ban doing so.

          Hanna's fever is so alarming. Her temperature turned 39. She had taken up Cefalin and Mj continuously wipes her with damped cloth. I wish she would get well and started to smile again. I'm willing to disregard my thrusting chest pain just to see her fine.

         In exhaustion and sleepiness, I fell asleep without praying to God, as usual thing before abed. Yet, I didn't forget it. I still prayed when I woke up for night usual habit. I asked Him for Hanna's healing and everyone's blessing.


January 30, 2006

          Due to Hanna's sickness I have had a bad and disturbed sleep. However, it's okay. Mj was the one who must complain because she had almost no sleep taking care of her.

          It was past six when someone disturbed my sleep, when I opened my eyes it was Hanna, playing. It made me happy I thought she's well but when I touched her forehead --she's still feverish.

          Nine AM, Michael was directed to go to Lola's house, of course to ask and seek financial help. I expect that when he came back, he'd bought Alactamil for Hanna. Thanks, God! I have guessed it!

          All day long, Hanna has been so sensitive to noise. She became nervous even in a beep of vehicle. She also has been mother's warmth seeker. She always cried out for Mj. Good thing, she has now pronounced the crucial word "Mama".

          Past five, I have no idea where couple Ann-Art going. I was startled by the fact that they came from a 'mangtatawas’ when they came back. They brought red melted-and-formed candle. According to them, Hanna has "pilay" in shoulder and was scared or has feared chicken or bird. The 'mangtatawas' prescribed bird's egg.

          Espinosas are, now I know, very superstitious and traditional healer faithful. Nanay, eventually, crossed Hanna's forehead, hands and feet using the queer red stuff. She told me then not to kiss Hanna temporarily.

          I don't know how to react on this matter. There is no chicken here, bird as well. I told them that a chicken stuffed toy is the only chicken Hanna could see. But she enjoyed the massaging feeling whenever I pull the string on it and put it on her chest or stomach.

         "Mangtatawas" might have been mistaken it. Mj has "pilay" on her shoulder.

          Frankly, on January 28, I have mistakably curved Hanna's back when I put her on a push scar she fancies much. Beforehand, Mj blamed me for this. Besides, being "pilay" was not only, supposed to be, the factor to be considered of her fever. She has also cough and phlegm. I really don't believe the findings how did he know since Hanna is not known to him and never leave the house for his "pagtatawas" work? Hmp! It's a work of devil! I only believe God.

          "Lord, forgive them for they don't know what they are doing. I believe on you. I know there's a purpose on this. But please don't let us very down, to the point that all of us would suffer much on the consequences. Thank you!"


January 31, 2006

          Thanks, God, Hanna's fever has lowered down. She could now smile. Her being cryingly was reduced except when she's poopooing.

          Eight-thirty, my sister-in-law, Elek called. I expected from her bad news. According to her, the rain has just stopped today. But the worse news is the fact that our makeshift door is open. It made my emotions mixed. I'm angry but I don't know to whom. One thing I'm sure of, Federico and family robbed in our house again.

          God is really great! He blessed Tiyo Boy today. The latter got four digits in lotto, winning P600. He, initiatively, bought pork and gave Tatay some of his winnings. Therefore, we have a nutritious meal this day.

          Hanna could now pronounce the syllable 'ba'. She could already speak both 'Mama' and 'Papa' plus 'ap-ap' when she wanted to be cuddled up. Nice, baby!

          After watching Wowowee, Mj and I found out the cause of Hanna's frequent crying during her poopooing. It was the swelling on her anus. There is a blood on her diaper, together with the poopoo. I pity her. What's happening to her? Thus, immediately, my brother-in-law, Michael was commanded to go to Tito Jun. When he returned, he had P500 on his hands for Hanna's check-up.

          My baby's check-up was supposed to be now, but the doctor was already home. Instead, Mj and I brought her to Tiya Estrella, a manghihilot sister-in-law of Tatay. There, she declared that Hanna got "pilay" on her back.

          We're supposed to go to Bso-Boso tomorrow but due Hanna's illness it would be postponed again. Anyway, she must be healed first instead of clearing the property in Boso-Boso.

          I'm so thankful that Tito Jun and Lolo are so financially supportive to Espinosa Family. They never disappoint everyone of Espinosa's help-seeking. "Bless them always, Oh, Lord!"

          Prayer Concern Tonight: Hanna's good health and our house-in-Polot's security and safety.