My Journal -- March 2009

 

March 1, 2009

I got up to shred the coconut for the dish, intended for breakfast. Later I was letter-cutting and drawing. I have accomplished Ate Quennie’s teaching materials at 9 am.

 

Before I went to the market, Mj texted me. She says, “Mrning! Npnginipan q c Epr kgbi. Tnwag skin tpos ang tgal nmin ng-usap. Remember q lng n kya dw sya di mktxt kc pnpuslit yong cp nia, un ang pgksbi niya.”

 

I replied, telling her that it seemed real.

 

Minutes later, Epr requested a load from me. I could not give him because I’m saving mu money for my trip. In fact, I just asked load from Leo.

 

After cooking, I read the lesson plan I would demonstrate on Monday.

 

At one, I was reviewing and texting. I have vexed Gleazy.

 

I stayed upstairs—texting.

 

I conversed with Divina. I have given her again words of encouragement. She was thankful. She says, “Hehe. Tlgang cnseryoso u n ngaun ah. Kya nga po sna mgkksama na tau sa prof. Gudluck po tlga nd issma q kau s nga prayers q. Thnk u rn kc anjan kau nki2nig s akin.”

 

I have conversed with JayR, as well. He invited me to meet him when I go to Manila. And he told me that he’s planning to go to school in June 2010 and take up ComSci. I told him it’s a nice idea.

 

Mj and I also conversed. I told her that I missed our kids so much.

 

She says, “Mis mis k llo n Hnna. Lgi nya cnsbi un e. C Zj tntanong q, ‘San c Papa?’ Sbi nya, “Ko, Papa ko.’ Ung Bkol nya ‘ko’ lng nbbgks nya.”

 

It was six when I went downstairs. I had coffee. Later I was showcasing my teaching materials to Ate Quennie, including my big book, I did last semester. She liked them.

 

I also submitted the drawings and letter-cuttings.

 

At past eight, I went to a vigil nearby. I just watched ‘tong-its’ players and karaoke singers. I went back home before 9 pm.

 

Later, Leo and I were text-conversing. It was a very long conversation. I stopped at 11 pm.

 

 

 

 

March 2, 2009

After having a hot drink, I spent time upstairs reviewing. I was supposed to wash my clothes, but I postponed it because Mj would send money to Ilek. I must hand carry the amount. However, she texted me at 9 am and I have claimed it at past 10.

 

I was hungry at that time. It was making me mad. So, I decided not to go to Polot. Besides, the weather was not that good.

 

Mj was insisting that I must personally give the money to Ilek. I was so irritated that she could not understand the value of my time. I have told her that I’m the cook here, but she kept on doubting that it might not be, given if O will ask somebody to do my task until I told her “Naiiniz n aq. Wu n me pilitin.” She apologized, but I knew I had hurt her. I opted not to explain.

 

Since I have done cooking and eating, I took a siesta. It was one way of forgetting the incident.

 

When I woke up, I reviewed. I also practice my lines in my demo-simulation teaching.

 

At 5 pm, I was already in school—preparing and posting my teaching materials on the board.

 

I could say that my demo was a success. Stage fright did not hinder me, except for the few stammers and mental blocks. But the overall impact was very good. I knew they enjoyed my lesson. I have clearly told them the story.

 

 

 

March 3, 2009

At six, I texted Mj. “Happy 2^nd birthday, Zildjian!” And I hoped my son was in good health. I knew he was at the right level of growth at his age. I just wished he could talk as a grown-up boy.

 

I started washing my clothes at past 6:30. I have accomplished it at 9 am—with distractions.

 

Since Aileen was the one who cooked, I have had a chance to study. I wrote reviewers.

 

I took a nap at 12:30.

 

At past 4, I and The Inseparables decided to have a jamming. We were going to have snacks at Ate Salve’s house. But we did it at the 9Balls Restaurant instead. Caroline was with us. We met her on the way.

 

After a jolly snack time, we went to Managa-naga and drank and sang there. It was as if Zildjian’s party.

 

Caroline and Sha left before we started drinking. Tina left at 6:30.

 

Padi Glenn texted me. I invited him to join us, but it was wrong timing. The punch we were drinking was almost consumed. Ate Salve and I were apologetic, since they’re going back to school ‘pa.’

 

It was seven when we all left Managa-naga. My head was aching, but I must have a bonding moment with Glenn. We drank brandy at Dr. Can’s house. We had a nice conversation though I was not feeling fine.

 

Before nine, I told him that I could not drink any shot. Then I bade adieu.

 

I just walked home. Tirso Gojit let me ride on his motorcycle from Jollibee to Aquino. It expedited my walking time.

 

At nine, I reached home. I immediately went upstairs without eating dinner. Then I threw up. It happened twice. The second was in the middle of the night.

 

 

 

March 4, 2009

I was not well when I got up. I felt nausea, but I tried to rise. However, after taking a hot drink, I threw up. Thus, I went back to bed. My head was aching. My stomach was so empty, but I was scared to eat. I might just vomit.

 

Good thing, I was not needed downstairs. I just told them that I have stomachache. It was one pm when I felt relieved.

 

I reviewed, took a nap, and reviewed.

 

At four thirty, I was preparing to go to school. Being in school always make me feel good, especially when I am with my classmates. They could give a smile on my face.

 

At seven I joined Ate Salve and Sha in ‘KFC’—eating street food. I initiated that term. We talked until 8:20.

 

At 8:30, Padi Christian approached me. He asked if I would enroll again in June. I said yes, if I would not pass the LET. Then he talked about taking exams in NAPOLCOM. I told him that teaching is my passion. And he promised to help me in securing a work position in their company—RRS Marketing. I showed interest. I told him that I really wanted to work, especially this summer. I thanked him before he bade goodbye.

 

 

 

 

March 5, 2009

I had nothing household chores to do, thus I spent the morning reviewing. It was nine when I stopped reviewing to cook. And after dishwashing at 11:45, I did it again. I think I have learned a lot today.

 

At four, we had snacks and at 5 pm, we sang along at Ate Salve’s house. There’s no liquor at that time.

 

Before seven, I was in the library. I was asked by Gleazy to help her explain ‘Naturalism,’ Rationalism,’ Idealism,’ and Pragmatism.’ I did it when they left.

 

Mj and I text conversed for few hours. I had told her that I had been in a gimmick, which she agreed. According to her, I need it as a break.

 

At nine, I started to catch a tight sleep. I stopped texting. I also told Mj. She greeted me “Gudnyt’ instead.

 

I thanked God first. I also asked forgiveness and blessings.

 

 

 

 

March 6, 2009

Mj’s text message-- “Hppy 62^nd mensisary! I love you!” –she sent at 6 was the first message I received when I woke up at 6:30. I greeted her, too.

 

At nine, I was doing schoolwork.

 

At one, I watched TV at Aileen’s house.

 

At 4:30, I took a nap. It was past 6 when I got up. At that time, I was text-conversing with Jenny Pelis, my classmate in Prof Ed 3, who was having a pre-marital relationship with his long-time BF.

 

 

 

March 7, 2009

At past seven, I helped in pushing-and-pulling the Eking boat, despite my aching back.

 

At nine, I did marketing. I cooked when I got home. It was a part of Ate Ningning birthday celebration.

 

I reviewed upstairs after cooking and before eating. My back was still aching.

 

At one-thirty, I watched TV at Aileen’s house. Later Mj texted me. I have learned that Zildjian’s godmother visited them and gave him P200.

 

At 2:30, I have cooked a yummy pancit canton. Later I watched TV again until 4 pm.

 

At five, I was awakened to do marketing. And after one hour, I was done cooking. Whew! I have been so occupied with this whole day. I only have learned a few today due to these tasks.

 

I stayed upstairs until eight.

 

At 8:30, Mj and I were texting. Her messages disappointed and saddened me. Here they are:

1.      “Mhlig mgsulat cl ani Zj. Kht sn nga ng’ssulat kht d pder, hehe. C Zj khpon nttwa kmi, syaw sya Wowowee. Hnubad ing brief at sinuot plda. Hnubad q, tinopak.”

2.      “Kya nga Klngn k tlga nya d2, kc nga pro grls klro nya. Pg’lki nmn cgro nun d n.”

3.      “Kya nga e, pg ngllipstick dn aq pplagay dn hehe. Kw n bhla mgdscpline jn. Wka k na ata load. Cge gudnyt n. P2lugin q muna Zj.”

 

I advised her to keep him off the girl things. If possible, they hide when they comb, put on lipstick, etc.

 

My kids are smart kids. They are great imitators. Zj loves dancing, thus he likes to imitate Wowowee Girls. While Hanna… “C Hnna mya pa un slep, nood p Bnna Split. Sya dw c Christine.” According to Mj. It’s okay.

 

I asked God to make Zildjian a real man as he grows up. I also asked forgiveness for I have been a gay victimizer before. Karme, it maybe.

 

 

 

 

March 8, 2009

I was so occupied from the time I woke up at seven until eleven o’ clock. I bought corn grit and gave it to Tio Atong, who lives in Tahimik, through biking. My back was inflamed. I could feel it as if I applied liniment.

 

I did marketing afterwards and cooked our viand.

 

At one, Aileen gave me P100 because Skye boat and its fishermen have gotten 15 chests of ‘lawlaw.’ It was a blessing. Thus, later I bought load and texted Mj.

 

While watching TV, I was conversing with Shobee. It was 3 pm when I opened the issue of our misunderstanding happened couple of weeks ago. I have learned that she got angry due to my advice. I also told her that I got mad about her term ‘paubaya’ and when she sent back my apology.

 

At past 4, we were already okay. We both apologized.

 

At five, I cooked. It was 6:30 when I finished it. It was also the time when I spent hours watching TV.

 

At eight, I supped. Later I went upstairs to start getting sleep. I was so sleepy. I did not even reply to Leo, who says, “D2 puh aq fren q ng inuman kme.”

 

 

 

March 9, 2009

At six thirty, I was already dressed two very skinny chickens. They were almost dead when Mama Leling cut their heads off. I was so annoyed doing that. I did not feel the task. Killing dying animals makes me sick. Yet O accomplished it nicely.

 

Then I did household chores. Later I treated Papay Benson’s workers with ice-cold water ang sandwiches.

 

Aileen did the cooking at 11 am, thus I had a chance to do my homework and to review.

 

After dishwashing, I decided to take a nap. However, it was so hot upstairs. I was like in a steam bathroom. Thus, I got up and watched TV at Aileen’s house until past 3.

 

At four pm, I was preparing myself for going to school.

 

When I was in school, I immediately paid the balance of my tuition fee. Papay Benson gave me P1,000 today.

 

In the library, I accepted jobs from Adamson and April. I must explain Essentialism, Individualism, Humanism, and Disciplinism.

 

Ma’am Golloso was absent again. I instead spent her time in the library. But instead of studying for my own sake, I did research for Vicky Domasig. She asked me to make a lesson plan about parts of a newspaper, using expository method. Though it was tough, I accepted it.

 

I gathered information when she left. And after dinner, I have a rough draft.

 

Thanks, God, for the intelligence. For this, I could help my friends and classmates.

 

 

 

 

March 10, 2009

While having a hot drink, I was sweeping. Afterwards, I did some household chores. I saw to it that I was not needed before I went upstairs to study.

 

At 9:30, I was cooking.

 

At 11 am, I was rewriting the lesson plan I wrote for Domasig. I also researched in the PC for the ‘Individualism’ of Adamson.

 

After dishwashing, I pursued writing and studying upstairs. Good thing, it was airy there. I could not feel the heat of the sun, that penetrates the galvanized iron roof.

 

I took a nap when my eyes sagged.

 

Ma’am Girado gave us something to work on while she’s checking our notebooks. I wrote an essay, entitled “My Education: My Contribution to the Future.”

 

I read this in front of my classmates.

 

As usual, Inseparables and I bonded in the school canteen. After that, I spent 3 hours in the library—reading.

 

At past seven, I went to Can’s Clinic. Glenn and I talked. I showed him the computation of how to fail of how to pass the licensure examination for teachers (LET). I also lent him some of my reviewers.

 

At eight, I walked home. Instead of having a tricycle ride, I bet on the lottery (6/42).

 

 

 

March 11, 2009

I started washing early. It was after I asked and confirmed to Aileen, if Kuya Jape could be here on Monday. He could not, so, it means, I must commute on Saturday. It saddened me because Papay Benson might not give me money for the fare.

 

 

At eight, I was done washing. Immediately after this, I wrote Nonoy’s summary of report in management.

 

Before and after cooking, I reviewed. While cooking I was irritated. I don’t know why everyone’s acts seemed irritating to me. I hated Skye’s cry and noises.

 

I took a nap at one and reviewed again at past 2.

 

At 4:30, I was already in RGCC. I wrote in the library. April and Gleazy were there, too. We vexed each other until 5:30 pm.

 

At seven, we were in the library again. We, the unit-earners, seemed glad despite cramming moments. I took the moment because it was my last three days with them. On Saturday, we were not seeing each other anymore.

 

I slept early at past 9:30 pm.

 

 

 

 

March 12, 2009

Seven to eleven am, I was reviewing both for the final exam ang LET. However, I spent most of it on the latter.

 

Past 12, Mj texted me. She asked about my exam. I have no load so I could not reply.

 

After dishwashing I stayed upstairs. I reviewed and took a nap.

 

At 2:30, I was taking an exam. I finished it so fast; thus, I had a chance to read the ‘Rover.’ I was so proud of myself because my contribution, entitled ‘Dilemma’, was there. Aside from it, it was ‘untouched’ or unedited. There were no edited-out words, it was okay if Harold did not include my essay that Ma’am Girado recommended for contribution.

 

During vacant period, I joined the Inseparables in giggling and teasing each other. I was also text conversing with Mj. I told her that I would only commute and I wanted to attend Ate Che’s brother’s birthday party on Saturday night.

 

I just got sad when Mj says “Gutom. Wla nga mlk khpon p. Milo nga ky Hnna e. C Zj 1 beses p lng dumede ngaun. Wla pera d2 e,” while I was full.

 

Ma’am Enolva arrived late. Good thing, her exam was just essay-type. I did it at 6:45. Immediately after this, I went to Dr. Can’s clinic to give Glenn his requests-- reviewers.

 

I walked home at seven.

 

At 8:30, I went upstairs and took a rest. I told Mj when she texted me. I really wanted to have a rest. My mind was very exhausted. I would rather review tomorrow morning. However, I could not sleep early due to noise pollution.

 

 

 

March 13, 2009

At past 7, I was reviewing I Aileen’s dining area. I focused first on Prof Ed 5, and later I took notes about Information technology, which is included in our major subject test.

 

At eleven, I was watching TV.

 

At quarter to one, I went upstairs to take a nap. I have fallen asleep somehow.

 

At 4 pm, I was already set for school. It was after Glenn and I talked about (through text) tha PRC’s room assignment for us. The notice arrived this morning and we’re assigned to take LET at Divine World College. But we were not in the same room. It is alright! At least, we have the same school.

 

In the library, I took my free time to write. I researched teaching strategies for teaching strategies that I did not know yet.

 

After the two consecutives final exams, I bid goodbye to some of my friends. It does not sadden me. I knew we could be seeing each other again.

 

Padi Glenn replied late. I was already walking home when he read my text that I was waiting outside the clinic. I then told him that I would be back tomorrow instead.

 

 

 

 

March 14, 2009

While sweeping, I was having coffee. Later I ran after the three ducks. I put them in the pen. It tired me.

 

At eight, I was preparing my stuff. I wanted to leave for Manila now. I just must wait for Papay Benson’ to give me the fare.

 

At past nine, the applicant came in. She decided to postpone my trip today. I notified Lea later. I texted her the applicant’s information and answers to the interview I did.

 

After dishwashing, I started reading upstairs. I also took a nap and wrote notes.

 

At 4:30, I stopped reviewing. Later I was writing the lyrics of a song, texted by Epr. It is entitled ‘Tonight’ by FM Static. I haven’t heard this song before. Thus, I did not know its melody. But I was sure it was nice.

 

Mj texted me. She asked if my trip tomorrow was sure. I confirmed that it was sure.

 

At past 5, I went biking. I decided to go to Managa-naga and asked Amy if she has a scientific calculator because I would need one on April 5. However, she was not there. Her mother said that she’s in Manila.

 

Hence, I went to Dr. Can clinic. I talked to Glenn for 30 minutes. Then I went back home at seven. That time, I decided not to attend debut of Ate Che’s sibling. I did not want to be with Melay. I would not enjoy her presence.

 

At eight, I was text-conversing with Ms. Lea about the applicant. After 30 minutes, we agreed upon a good deal. I would be with her maid, I mean, her hired maid would come with me tomorrow.

 

I have had a hard time getting to sleep. At past eleven, I was still awake.

 

 

 

March 15, 2009

I think it was 1:30 am when I fell asleep. It was six o’ clock when I was already awake and at 6:30, I texted Lea that the applicant was not able to come with me today and work with them. I did not tell her the real reason, which was being pregnant. Thanks to the latter’s sister, who texted me about it.

 

At 9:30 to eleven I was cooking. Afterwards I cleaned upstairs. I kept my stuff, as well.

 

Before one, I announced to them that I was about to leave by borrowing a luggage bag. I was given P1,000 by Papay Benson. I was glad. I could buy my kids and in-laws ‘pasalubong.’ Apples and oranges for my kids. ‘Tuyo’ for my in-laws.

 

At one-thirty, I left the house to terminal. I bought ‘tuyo’ and apples first. In the bus terminal, I bought coated pili nuts. I also gave Mj load. I announced my departure to her.

 

I felt dizzy when the bus moved forward. It might be due to my sleeplessness. Good thing, I did not throw up.

 

 

 

March 16, 2009

Before 6:00, I was already in my parents-in-law’s house. My kids were still asleep. It was Zildjian who was first recognized by my presence. I tried to sleep, but I could not. My kids missed me so much. It was obvious. I missed them, too.

 

At 9:30, Mj came with me and Hanna to Cogeo. She bought milk and diaper for Zj. She went back home alone.

 

At 10:30 we got to Bautista. Tia Letty was there. Mj has no space here, if ever she came with us.

 

I took a nap at past 12 while everybody was sleeping. When I got up, I pursued my review. Reviewing there, I think, has no retention maybe because I was occupied by taking care of Hanna.

 

 

 

March 17, 2009

Tough I had a bad sleeping position last night, I had a nice sleep. Hanna and I got up at 8 am. After breakfast, I started reading. Jano was listening to music. Later he played DVD-karaoke. I pursued reading despite the noise. I wanted to sing. I stopped for a long while. Jano invited me to sing. So, I did until past 11 am. He did the cooking.

 

I took a nap while Hanna was sleeping. We got up at 4 pm.

 

Auntie Vangie texted me at past 6. We talked about Mama’s operation. Later I asked if I would see her tomorrow. At first, she said I would instead go there before Mama’s operation, but when I told her that I would only use my money, she told me to go to their house tomorrow.

 

Then I prepared my stuff, Hanna’s, and Mama’s. I would drop Hanna to Mj before I go to Tandang Sora.

 

I reviewed computer terms before I tended Hanna to sleep.

 

 

 

March 18, 2009

Jano woke me up at 6. I forgot that I was scheduled to go to Tandang Sora today. Thus, I quickly prepared myself. I hurriedly packed my things. It was 6:20 when he left Bautista.

 

I dropped Hanna first. Then I went to Auntie Vangie’s house. It was 8:30 am when I got there.

 

While Auntie and I were conversing, I was having breakfast. I could not eat much due to consciousness. We then changed place. We pursued our talk in the living room, where I showed her Mama’s papers. She told me her ‘tampo’ towards Jano. I also shared my disappointment.

 

At past nine, I had to leave Tandang Sora early because Tito Rey was waiting for Auntie. It was after she handed me P2,500.

 

I inquired first the airfare and Negros Navigation’s before I went to Rancho. It was to comply with Aileen’s request.

 

At Goto King, I dined in at 11:30 am before I took a ride to Antipolo.

 

At past one, I was already at my in-laws’ house. My head was aching, and I was so sleepy. Thus, I took a nap after I let my kids fall asleep.

 

At two, I started reading. I did it despite my kids’ disturbances.

 

 

 

March 19, 2009

At nine, I left my in-laws’ house. Hanna was still sleeping. Mj and Zildjian came with me to the highway. My son was not regarding me. He seemed sad about my leaving.

 

I bought Vitamin B-complex, Milo, and cotton for Mama before I took a jeepney ride to Bautista. I also bought ampalaya for our viand.

 

At past ten, I got home. After a few hours, I cut Hanna’s pictures printed in her first birthday tarpaulin banner.

 

At eleven, I called Happy using my Sun sim number. It has an unlimited call load. We had a nice long talk over several things.

 

I texted Epr that I wanted to talk to him on the phone, but he did not insert his Sun sim. It disappointed me so much. I wondered why he did it to me. He did not even comply to my request— “Magparamdam ka muna.”

 

Mj and I talked on the phone also.

 

I took a review in the afternoon. And at 4:30, I watered the plants. I also did sweeping later.

 

At 6:30, I was cooking.

 

Despite the noise, I tried to focus on my review. It distracted me sometimes, but I really must review.

 

 

 

 

March 20, 2009

At 4 am, I was already awake, but it was 4;30 when I got up to prepare. And at 5:30, Mama and I left home. At past 8:00, we were already at Sta. Lucia Eye Bank. Mama’s interview started minutes after our arrival. I was also involved in it.

 

At past 9:00, we left PGH. The interview was successful. Mama got a 100% discount on cornea; she needed it for the operation.

 

Going back home was harder than going and looking for the eye bank. My head was aching due to terrible heat and air pollution.

 

On the way home, I notified Auntie Vangie about the ‘lakad’ we made. She was worried that she might pay P20,000, which was tentative.

 

Before 12:00, we were home. I also notified Jano about Auntie Vangie’s words.

 

At past 3:00, while watching TV, I took a review. At 4:30, I took a nap.

 

At 6:00, I watered the plants.

 

At 7:00, Mama, Tia Letty, and I talked about Jano. We all condemned him for being insensitive to Mama’s needs. I have expressed my grievances and ill-feelings toward him.

 

Gie arrived before Jano. We discussed the cornea. I have learned that East Avenue Medical Center will not ask for P20K operation pay. Yet I was not convinced yet. I still must prove it. I will be there next week to pass Mama’s lab test results.

 

When Jano arrived, we were still talking about cornea thing. But he only asked a few questions. Later, Gie and I talked about alumni. The others joined us.

 

Talking about SFES Alumni is a jolly topic to be discussed. It made them crave to join, as well.

 

 

 

 

March 21, 2009

I was awakened by Jano-and-Gie’s noise of preparation. And at past 6:00, I must get up because they also did. Tia Letty and Flor started the laundry. I took care of Courtney. At least, I was freed from washing my clothes. I just helped them in hanging the washed clothes.

 

At past 10:00, I started chopping the cashew seeds. That time I decided to stay in my in-law’s house until Friday because tonight Jano will have visitors. I also got mad about being occupied there. I could not review. Aside from that, food is minimal.

 

At past 3:00, I left Bautista. Mama wanted me to come back on Monday. I did not commit or promise.

 

At 4:00, I was in Rancho. I was text-conversing with Gleazy because she gave me load a while ago. I teased her. But our conversation was short-lived.

 

I read my notes while my children were coloring. I enjoyed seeing them.

 

 

 

March 22, 2009

It was 8:00 when I got up. I never thought I would rise that late.

 

After breakfast, I took a review on Math. I used a calculator. I did well. My mistakes were on the theoretical questions. Ut overall, it was nice!

 

My kids were imitating me. They also mock read. At their age. They study. They value education. They are just so naughty. They forget to take a rest during siesta time.

 

At past 4:30, I was reading after more than hour, I have hit Hanna’s leg thrice due to tantrum—annoying tantrum. I did not pity her though she cried hard despite the red marks made by the force of my hand. She was sometimes irritating, that someone who does not know her well would be annoyed.

 

I pursued reading until Mj hailed me for dinner.

 

After supper, Kuya Bambi texted me. He regarded our cousins and later he asked me to find a job for him. He wanted a job in a restaurant. Immediately I texted Taiwan. Unfortunately, there was no vacancy there. So, I suggested working at Infinite Entreprises and texting Auntie Vangie.

 

I pity Kuya Bambi. I knew how he felt every time Papay Benson addressed him as an idiot. It is the sole reason why he needs to work and live independently.

 

 

 

March 23, 2009

At past 8:00, after having coffee, I started to take a review. Though I haven’t had breakfast. I knew there was retention and comprehension in my reading.

 

At 10:30, I stopped and watched TV. It lasted until past 3:00 pm.

 

I read a dictionary from 4:30 until past 5:30 pm. It would help me a lot in taking General Education test on April 5.

 

 

 

March 24, 2009

It was 8:45 when I got up. I started to tale a review after a while. I was having a hot drink. For the second day, we have no breakfast. But I have no remorse. I understand the situation. Besides, it was my choice.

 

At 11:30, Padi Glenn texted me. He told me that he was just waiting for a call. He was interviewed. If the San Jacinto Rural bank calls, he is going to start training. It means Math teaching job that he is about to accept would be mine. Yet I never reassured him.

 

I watched Willie of Fortune, a segment of Wowowee at 12 noon. It made me shed tears secretly due to the anecdotes and stories told by the contestants, who are all young parents.

 

I pursued the review after that.

 

 

 

 

March 25. 2009

After breakfast I faced my reviews. It was eight. Hanna was still sleeping, so Zj was the only distractor. But she was added to distraction at past 9:00.

 

Though children there were so noisy and were on tantrum, I could still focus on my review. There was so much retention there compared to when I was in Bautista. It maybe because I was with my kids.

 

Gie texted me at 3:00. She told me that she called East Avenue Medical Center and the operator told her that we could submit lab test results tomorrow at 1:00. She wanted me to call, too. I tried but when I found out that East Ave. has a call center, OI decided to submit the results tomorrow morning instead. I knew I could make it. I just hope I can talk to Dr. Bacani, attending physician of Mama and have cornea transplant schedule, as well.

 

Zildjian has tantrums tonight. OI have hit him. Mj was so silent. I guessed it was due to Tatay’s words or jokes. Tatay says, “Ililigpit mo `yan (kuna), manganganak pa `yan.” I knew it was hurtful. But it was not worth it to be taken seriously.

 

I was affected by her silence. We eat dinner silently. Thus, I slept early. Good thing, our kids fell asleep early, as well.

 

 

 

March 26, 2009

I had a sleepless night last night. At 6:00, I was already wide awake. At 7:30, I beat Zj because he has a tantrum. Mj got mad. At 8:00, I left Rancho. Good thing, Tatay was not there. I did not have to bide adieu. But I told Nanay where I was going.

 

At 9:00, I was already at EAMC. I failed to locate the External Disease-Cornea Department at once. But I found it afterwards.

 

I waited for 1:00 before I approached one doctor there. I did not do it immediately because they were busy with other patients.

 

At 1:30, I have talked to a female doctor, and I have learned that x-ray, ECG, and blood chemistry results are only effective for less than one month. Thus, Mama’s laboratory results dated January 17, 2009 were denied. She must undergo tests again.

 

At 3:00, I was already home. My head was aching. I was also starving. Before I ate, I notified Auntie Vangie about the sad news. Of course, she got annoyed with Jano and Gie. I assured her that Mama could be operated on. We just must spend money, time, and effort again.

 

Jano was there when I got home, but he did not ask directly about it. He just did when Gie arrived at past 8:00.

 

Auntie Vangie was really concerned about Mama’s operation. She texted me again at past 8:00. She also told me to go to Bodino to get the budget for the tests. But I did not confirm that I would be there.

 

 

 

March 27, 2009

I got up to prepare at 4:30. And at 5:30, Mama and I left to EAMC. The Eye Center was still closed when we got there. It was past seven o’ clock. It opened after a few minutes. However, we waited until 10:00 before Mama was called to be checked up. Then, we had a very long wait again.

 

Aside from long anticipation, we also suffered from sever pain in ‘pantog’ because we could not find the nearest comfort room. It was past 1:00 when we found a female restroom. I used it too unnoticeably.

 

I texted Auntie Vangie after lunch. She told me that she was dismayed by my news, and she does not know what to say. I knew she was still blaming Jano and Gie.

 

At 4:00, after the doctor discussed to us Mama’a result of her opthasonic, we left the Eye Center. We were going back on Wednesday.

 

At 6:30, we got home. I was exhausted, yet I still managed to treat Mama and myself with hot milk. Then I texted Mj. I told her about our ‘lakad.’

 

At quarter to 8:00, Amy texted me. We conversed until past 8:30. I learned that she was scheduled to leave for Dubai in the last week of April. She asked for my prayers, so did I for my LET.

 

At past 9:00, Jenny Altarejos’ boyfriend sent me a wrong message. But I knew he did it intently so he could talk to me. So, I accommodated his text message. I asked him about my classmate. Then he started confiding with me. I only stopped replying when my cell phone had got no signal.

 

 

 

March 28, 2009

At 6:00. After Jano and Gie left for work, I got up to treat Mama her breakfast. Later after I unfilled the water drums, I texted Albert, Jen’s fiancé’. I apologized for not notifying him last night. Then we pursued our talk that we started last night. I found him nice and humble. I also have learned that he could give me a LET reviewer from the printing press, where he is working. I told him that I was just kidding. But he was not. Thus, I proposed to him something we agreed upon. He would collect every book that the company is putting in trash and I would get them from him when I have time and budget for our drinking session. Then I quit replying. But I notified him that time.

 

I took a review today, but it was not that intensive. I just did not want to use time unproductively.

 

After lunch, I took a nap.

 

At 1:00, I watched TV. I was entertained somehow. I was also taking a review.

 

Today, I was having a problem with money that I need for my LET on April 5. I could not be in Bulan on April 1 because I will accompany Mama on that day at EAMC> So, it means, I must go to Legazpi on April 4 without going to Bulan to ask for money from Papay Benson. I was sure he would not give me.

 

I waited for Auntie Vangie’s test. She is my only hope, Mama’s as well. My mother needs a budget

 On Wednesday. But she (my aunt) did not text me until evening.

 

 

 

March 29, 2009

At 6:30, I woke up, but it was past 7:00 when I got up to have a hot drink. I have read Taiwan’s message very late. I was supposed to be there.

 

At 7:30, I left Bautista. I went to Rancho first to fetch Hanna. While waiting, I texted Taiwan. He told me that they were done marketing. He then requested 5 balloons. I knew he was demanding payment from Mj’s debt, when Zj was hospitalized, but I have no money. He says, “D bale na. punta u dito agad.” So, I did. Hanna’s with me. Mj did not come with us. She was ashamed of having unpaid debts or arrears.

 

At 9:00, we were already at Golden Hills. Without further ado, I started preparing the ‘handa.’

 

Jano arrived at 12 noon. He helped me with cooking, but I did almost all of the menu—spaghetti, pansit. Lumpia Shanghai, and chopsuey.

 

At past 3:00, we finished cooking. My dishes were yummy!

 

I sang along after eating, but I must stop when Taiwan’s guests arrived. I have sung more than 5 songs before we left at past 6:00.

 

Jano and I dropped Hanna first at my in-law’s house before we went home.

 

I was tired, but I could not take a rest immediately. Instead, I watched TV until 9:50.

 

 

 

March 30, 2009

At 7:00, I was washing my clothes and some of Mama’s clothes. I finished it at 9:00. Then, I did gardenwork before I took a bath.

 

I was supposed to clean Mama’s room, but I decided to do it tomorrow. Courtney will be just a hindrance. Besides, Tia Letty and her ‘apo’ were going to stay in Pasig for long.

 

Mama decided to borrow P1,000 from Ate Ginalyn, Gie’s sister. So, at 5:30, Tia Letty, Courtney, and I went to Pasig. Ate Ginalyn did not frustrate us. She knew maybe Mama’s condition and needs.

 

Our arrival there was at the right time. Ate Ginalyn has received her package from her husband. She gave Mama, Mj, and Gie Toblerone.

 

After resting a while from having supper, I left Pasig. It was past 10:00 when I got home.

 

 

 

March 31, 2009

At 6:30, I got up to prepare myself from cleaning Mama’s room. I woke Mama and Flor up. At 7:00, we were starting. I emptied the room. I dusted it.

 

Almost the whole day, I was cleaning. I did reorganization, dusting, upkeeping, and keeping. I also gathered crucial stuff.

 

Afternoon, I cleansed the bathroom and swept at the yard.

 

At 8:30, while Mama was eating, I was telling her some of my school moments. I opened my plan of teaching in a private school in Taguig this June. This is the very first time That I told her my school life since I studied in June 2008.