My Journal --- September, 2007

September 1, 2007

I was dreaming when Mj woke me up. My dream was about Epr. I was looking after him. We haven't seen each other.

Six-thirty when I arrived at Eastland. I washed immediately. But, it was not enough to help me get my quota. It just adds on my collected tickets.

Before I forgot, I phoned on Mama at 5:45 AM. She already knew that I am working in Pasig. Auntie Vangie told her. I asked her when she would go to Bulan. She said that she still has no money. She's waiting for Taiwan's promise. Thus, I decided to visit Taiwan-Jenny tomorrow. I will borrow money, too, for my allowance.

I'm just worried about our unpaid property tax in Bulan. It would be ten years this September. It would be repossessed if we couldn't pay it.

Sir Louie wanted me to work overtime till 10 PM, but I have done all before six. So, I left at six. Before six, Jowel, the dryer, was inviting me to drink. I did not promise. I just said "Pag nakaraos na." I have got so many credits to be paid.

Traffic delayed me...

I bought milk for Hanna and diapers for them. I pity Hanna, too, for she was now drinking Alaska milk. I promised that it would only be good for a week.

I got home at eight.

Mj could not believe that I have work tomorrow. She thought I was going somewhere else. She must believe me.

I have to text Ate Juliet. I'm sure she's waiting for my notice or text why she couldn't hear from me. I knew she was judging me as no word of honor. Bad thing is Ilek was texting. She has load, but she's using it.

I tried to fall asleep after dinner because I was leaving tomorrow as early as 4:30 AM. 

September 2, 2007

Four, I was awakened by Mj. My body wanted to lie down still, but I didn't want to lose the rarest opportunity of better living. I might have success in this work.

Waking up early is good. I don't think, bathing early is good, too. Nice thing is Mj heated lots of water for our coffee. The excess is for my bath.

Eight, Sir Louie met some of 1st Revising employees, including me. He talked about what he heard yesterday. He was hurt by a joke of two revisers. Good thing is I'm not kidding him. Besides, I did not know him well. He's 'pikon pala'.

Nine, I was transferred to knitting manual. They occupied me by giving me lots of samples to be washed. Nevertheless, I accepted them with contentment and smile on my face.

While working, I realized that my work is too laborious. The cloths when wet are thrice heavier than their original weight. My chest hurts when I lift them. My head aches, too. However, I have to be industrious and patient. I have no choice, but to fulfil my task. Besides, it's better than no work at all. At least, I could purchase those I wanted to buy.

Two, I rushed to Taiwan's in-laws' house. I got there at 3. He's busy, thus Jen entertained me. We talked about Eastland. I have learned that she applied there, but she was asked who's her backer. Bad thing is only Aban is what she has answered, which is not known to HRD, because Ate Genalyn is now Genalyn Tayag.

When Taiwan was unoccupied, we talked about Eastland again. I then induced them to apply there. I gave them the numbers of Bilog and Ate Gina. I advised them, too.

We tackled Mama's leaving home to Bulan, as well. I reminded him about his promise. Sad thing is he could not give it. He is financially incapacitated that moment, so as, me.

I load my sim, then I texted Ate Juliet, asking her a kind consideration. She accepted my explanations. She then told me that Rachie and her husband were still separated. I pity her. I could still remember my 'kapilyuhan'. It's my fault actually. I texted Rachie with a love quote.

I also texted Maila. We talked about Mj's jealousy.

Past 5 PM when Taiwan, his 'mag-ina' and I left to Bayan. They're going to church. I was going home.

When I got home, Mj immediately asked if Taiwan lent me money. I sadly say no and explained why. She's just worried about my allowance and our kids' needs.

Tomorrow is Zildjian's 6th month birthday. I pity him for he has no 'handa', unlike Hanna on her 6th month. However, I'm thankful that he's healthy.

September 3, 2007

Quarter to five when the alarm rang. I wanted to reset it, but I preferred to get up and prepare to leave.

I thought I was late when I the surroundings. The darkness has gone. It was not the usual scenario. I then rushed to Bayan. I almost run. Six-thirty when I arrived at Eastland. I was too early. It made me blame myself, especially when I remember that today is first Monday of the month. We're supposed to be in at 7:30, because we would have a flag ceremony. It would be followed on the third Monday. Thus, I started washing. I was so occupied. I have had lots of work to be done.

Arlene, our secretary, returned my IPR (Individual Payroll Report) dated August 31 and September 1, because my efficiency rates were 29% and 50%, respectively. She told me to fix it.

Ten, I went to HRD and signed a contract there. I would have an OT today. I also signed to an OT mini-contract. I was thankful that I would have more income.

Eight-thirty, the overtime work ended. I got home at quarter to ten. Mj reminded me that Zj's milk was good for two 'timpla'. She asked from whom I could owe. "Whom?", I replied...

I tried to sleep at 10 PM. 

September 5, 2007

I must not be tired of waking-up and bathing early. I have to be patient, hardworking, and industrious, for my family.

Early at past 7, Ate Agnes came in. She was texted last night because she' going to be awarded as "Best Employee" in our department, for the month of August. She has given a simple recognition, gift (wish), and a certificate.

Then, Sir Louie pointed out that I must not be sad to my position. He complied that I would be the next awardee. Ate Malou said "Huwag kang mag-alala, tutulungan kita." Those were the inspirations I have gotten. I could feel that I'm really the next...

Overtime work...

Ate Joan Flores left home at 7:00 PM. I didn't notice her leaving. Alas! I wanted to borrow money from her tonight. But, she's gone. Yet, I still confident that I could owe tomorrow.

I was home at ten. Mj announced that she owed milk and diapers at the nearest store, after I told her my 'sahod' on Saturday would be based on my first week working days. She was saddened by it. 

September 6, 2007

I left to Eastland with P26 on my pocket. I didn't know where it would bring me or whom I could borrow from.

At Eastland, I approached Ate Pilar. Without question, except for "How much?", she gave me the amount I said. It's only P100, which would satisfy my needs till tomorrow.

Seven, Joel, Eli, and I cleaned out the can vans. I've got dusts. Good thing, I haven't catch colds.

While working overtime, Ate Malou invited me to join her. She immediately interviewed me about my 'mag-iina'. I could see her care for me. I think, I have made a wrong first impression to her.

While my workmates were taking a break at six, I was making a note for Mj, as a reply to her message to me, which she put on my bag. It goes like this:

Mj,

Thanks!

Frankly, I forgot his special day. I'm sorry. You know how busy I was these past few days. We even don't have time to talk.

I was touched by your effort, but let me tell you this: I'm not a womanizer. They're the ones who are coming into my life. Anyway, don't be afraid. I will stay besides you.

Just remember always that I'm a family man. Happy 44th mensisary!

This is her letter:

Bee,

Hapi 44th mensisary!

I don't know if we could still need to celebrate it. Halos wala na tayong time w/ each other. I really miss those times. Mga biruan at kwentuhan nating walang 'wenta o kahit ano lang na ginagawa natin, basta masaya tayo. I miss you. Everything about you. Ewan ko, pero pakiramdam ko, malayo ka nsa sa'kin.

I don't know if 'she's the reason'. I know, you like her and you miss her, too.

I love you and I will always will, hangga't andito ako. Aalagaan kita kahit hindi man tayo sa bandang huli. I will always treasure you, too.

Honey,

Still, Mj and I have had no time to talk. I sleep after writing. I just kissed my kids.

September 7, 2007

Quarter to five, I was visited by a terrible toothache. It was pestering me days ago, night and day. But this morning, the pain was unbearable. I couldn't sleep. Thus, I got up. It's so happened that Zildjian was wide-awake already. He's playing. I cuddled him up. He was smiling at me. Hanna got up, too. She wanted to come with me. Good thing, she did nit cry.

When I arrived at Eastland, 6:30 AM, I wanted to sleep. Thus, I lied down over the cloths. Bad thing is there's a disturbance. She washed cloths, which made me shy. Hence, I got up and started washing.

It was so hot in my workplace. My sweat fell all over my body. My shirt was already wet. I was just afraid it could make me sick, that I couldn't afford to have.

Lunch break... I made a 'latag' near the washing machine. I tried to nap. Unfortunately, warm air coming from a machine was making me sweat. I couldn't help but to wipe them. I think I haven't caught sleep even a single minute.

I realized, while working, that my position in this company is inappropriate to my course. I remembered Ate Malou's words. She's right. However, I must pursue working. I have no choice. It is a shame if I will go back to Infinite. And, it is hard if I will look another job. I have spent two thousands pesos plus since I was trained at Eastland, till this very day.

Before break time, I asked Jowel if he has money. Without saying "No", he, in lieu, referred Ate Yo, an old lady in our department. According to him, she's lending money. He immediately told it to her. And after a few minutes, Presto! One hundred pesos was handed down to me. I just have got startled when he announced that it has ten pesos interest. And, I secretly grimace. But, I accepted it happily. At least I could satisfy my needs tomorrow, especially this afternoon, for I have nothing in my pocket, except for one peso coin.

Before four, Sir Louie asked why I didn't ask him before I wash the black fabrics, which they called 'Lan'. I was taught how to wash and treat Lan, but I wasn't sure if that black fabrics are Lan. I was told before by him that there were so many washers, who were terminated because of the improper way of washing and due to the damages they made. Instead of being nervous and afraid, I calmed myself. I believed I did the right way and they were not Lan. But, If it was wrong, I knew it could be treated again. I knew I would not be terminated. I just took it as a lesson.

Tired and sleepy, I was. I lied down minutes after I arrived home. I tried to nap. I failed.

Mj talked to me about my salary tomorrow. She was expecting a high wage. Thus, she asked me if I could lend Nono Reno P100. I strongly said 'No', for I have got lots of credit to be paid. Here's the computation:

P1000 – Ate Juliet

700 – Jano-Gie

500 – Nanay

322 – Ate Rita (shirts and embutido)

100 – Ate Pilar

100 – Ate Yo

P2722 – Total (Plus budget for Nanay and interests for Ate Juliet and Ate Yo)

How could I pay them all? I don't know who's to prioritize. I might only receive more or less P2000.

Mj wanted to buy cream for Hanna's skin disease. I don't think I could purchase it.

"Lord God, thank you for the blessings! I have faced multifarious crises, but You make me strong. Thank You for the physical and mental strength! Please, Lord, continue bless me and my family and their families. Help us in getting our daily needs. Lord, help overcome my problem about Lan. I was being laughed by Jowel and Eli. Please prove to them that they were wrong. Thank You, Lord, for this job, despite of its hardship. Just keep me healthy and strong, patient and perseverant. Pardon me for my shortcomings. Amen."

September 8, 2007

Alarm clock rang at 4 PM. I thought it was 5, so I got up. I wondered why Mj did not get up. She announced later that it was too early, thus I slept again.

I was so sleepy while I was in the jeepney. I tried to open my eyes so that I could not go beyond my destination, like what happened last, last day.

Six-twenty when I arrived at Eastland. I conversed first with my close workmates and I finally started washing. I was then feeling nervous for I have done wrong washing operations.

Past seven, I was hailed by Sir Loiue. He's not angry. In fact, he told me that I'm industrious. I have just committed mistakes. It's the 'hindi pagtatanong'. I was asking him, but that fabric was not approved by him because I did not ask him what to do.

Eli was commanded to treat the Lan. I knew he's not happy doing it, but I could say nothing. I let him do the treatment. I assisted him anyway.

After two hours, the result was good. It turned out the way it must be. I was so glad. In fact, I was planning to hand down an apology letter to Sir Louie, which I wrote after break time. The letter goes like this:

Sir Loiue,

I am sorry... Yet, thankful, I was for you are a considerate one.

Thank you for the second chance, for I could show you my worth and capabilities. Rest assured that I will be more careful and inquisitive.

God bless you!

However, I haven't had a chance to rewrite it in an elegant paper. I waited for the break time, but I was working still.

I remember that that scenario has been my physical dream. I have dreamt of that. It was an exact reality. I just don't know if I have given that letter of apology. But, I was sure it has a good ending, because most of my forgotten or unremembered dreams were happening in the future of present.

My salary was given at 2:30 PM. I was disappointed that it's only P1687.50. I was expecting for P2000+. Yet, I knew, it would be given next Saturday.

I paid Ate Yo, Ate Pilar, and Ate Rita (P122). Ate Yo gave back the P10 interest. I handed down to her. She whispered that it was our secret. Only Eli, Jowel, She and I knew it. No one must know about it. Okay, I said.

Good thing, Ate Rita accepted my payment. I still have P200 balance.

I signed for a four hours overtime work. However, before five, I have got no more load to do, thus I decide to out at 5 PM. But before that, I have come to an idea of joining the Eastland Challenge, wherein I have to suggest about quality, cost reduction, work efficiency, etc. I opted to suggest --- lowering down the required quota for 10%. It was in connection with what happened yesterday to Lan. It was because I was running after quota.

I explained under the question "Benefits that can be gained from the suggestion". It goes like this:

"Quantity of an output is less important than quality. An employee tends to get his/her quota in the fastest way even the quality of our products is affected. Remember that we, the consumers want quality products over a substantial or poorly-made one. Thus, lowering down the quota will improve the quality of our products. Otherwise, meeting a required quota does not necessarily mean efficiency. It sometimes leads to deficiency. That's why we have supervisor. Their role is to supervise and ensure the quality, not the quantity."

I showed it to Jowel, Ate Margie, and Ate Pilar. They agree. I hoped it will be chosen. If that will so, I will never be as tired as before.

Five, Bilog and I have met at the hallway. He invited me to go to their house. I agree, since I wanted to thank Ate Genalyn personally. However, she's not there. Thus, I told it to Bilog before I left.

Past six when I arrived in Bayan. I window-shopped at Novo, then, I bought milks and diapers at Super Palengke. I got home before 8 PM.

Mj was disappointed to my salary. I was paying back Nanay, but she gave it back to me. She told me, too, to use it, for it might be used to Meralco bill next week.

Though I have no work tomorrow, I sleep early. I knew toothache would attack again.

September 9, 2007

I was right. Toothache struck again at the wee time. It made me tumble side by side. Plus, backache pestered me. They both made me sleepless.

Seven, I was too sleepy still, yet I was forced to get up. I have attended Zj.

Since Hanna and Zj were coughing hardly, Mj and I argued. She wanted me to buy Ventolin for nebulizer. I wanted her to give my children with oregano concoction or extract. My point is more effective than her. Besides, it's not costly. However, I still decided to go to Bayan for that medicine. Yet, I picked four leaves of oregano, which she gave to my kids..

Past nine, Hanna and I left home to Bayan. There, we window-shopped. I could see her gladness and delight in what we're doing. It merely saddened me when I couldn't give her all she was pointing.

She was so happy when she saw Jollibee> Sad thing is I couldn't treat her there. Thus, I brought her to Ultra Mega Supermarket. There, I put her on a cart, as if I was buying in bulk. The truth is I was just buying in impulse. I bought sanitary and laundry items, chocolate drink, and biscuits for me, as 'baon', and notebook, for my journal. I ALSO BOUGHT Hanna a magical writing board. She loves to scribble. So, she must have one.

Eleven, we went to Lola's house. I borrowed the nebulizer. I left after a few minutes.

Writing board made Nicole crazy and envious. She was crying for it. I never buy it for her. I never buy it just to make her envious. I buy it so that Hanna starts to love scribbling as early as possible.

Nicole has irked me. She kept on tailing for Hanna. What I did not like was she was hitting Hanna on her face. In my rage, I grabbed her hand and said angry words. I was seen by her mother, Michael, Bernie, and Michelle. I did not care. I was protecting my daughter from sadism.

I said, "Ugali nito!" Until, she cried and hid to Ilek.

Huh! That's why we have to have a separate house. My kids will grow up bad her. They will be envious to each other or they will be envied.

September 10, 2007

Quarter to 7 when I arrived at Eastland. It's the first time that happened. It may be because I was delighted to Zildjian. I kissed him many times, before I left.

I was 'natambakan ng gawa' because Overlock Girls has worked yesterday. Thus, I started quickly.

Later, Sir Louie talked to us. He said, we have to overtime work tonight and the next days. Of course, I would love to have a lot of overtime works.

Later, I signed to an overtime sheet. We would have an overtime work till Friday. I am so lucky.

Ten AM, I met Ate Genalyn at the hallway. She asked me if I already have waged. I said, yes. Then, I thanked her.

Before I eat, I went to HRD and claimed my ATM. I was supposed to pass my ID picture. Later, I was asked to present the original copy of my birth certificate.

I did not take a nap at 12. Instead, I continued washing. I also did a letter for Mj. It was about Hanna and Nicole's frequent quarrel. I told her to take care of Hanna because her mean cousin is hitting my daughter's face often. I advised her to tell it to Ilek and to talk to her niece. I also added that I hate to see Hanna being hurt. I couldn't afford to see anybody hurting her.

I have had many loads to do, so I took extra speed on washing. Thus, before five, they were almost done.

I have got home at ten. I checked Hanna's face. Good thing is it's still flawless.

"Thank You, Lord for this blissful day! Amen."

Mj has already read my letter. She got it on my wallet. We don't talk about it.

I was disturbed by the terrible pain due to my toothache. It's been a week now. I don't know why it's happening to me. 

September 11, 2007

Twelve-twenty, I was still awake. Toothache I was feeling was terrible. I couldn't bear the pain. I don't know when or what time I have fallen asleep. All I knew is that I was lack of sleep.

In Eastland, I converse first to my close workmates before washing.

Ten, I claimed my ID and submitted the original copy of my birth certificate. Bad thing, no one will going to approve. So, I have to come back.

Twelve, I took a nap.

Four, Divine invited me to join the 'paluwagan' It's worth P300. I joined without hesitation. I knew it could help me save. I was the 9th among ten. I'm going to receive the money on November 12, 2007. I was planning to buy a brand new cellphone as a reward for myself in being workaholic.

I was so tired when I got home. Mj was sleeping. She didn't even manage to get up and prepare my dinner. It was okay. I understand.

I kissed my kids before closing my eyes. I hoped I could sleep early. I hoped toothache leaves me alone.

Disappointed I was. I suffered from tremendous pain. I almost cried.

I did not know when I have fallen asleep. 

September 12, 2007

I was so early when I arrived at Eastland. Good thing is Margie Rizaga arrived early, so I have had a companion in the waiting area.

After break time, Ate Yo said, "Ikaw, ha, hindi ka nakikisalo sa amin." I apologized and promised I will do tomorrow.

Twelve, I took a nap. I think, I have fallen asleep for the few minutes. However, it made me satisfied. At least I felt alright.

Three, the first revising department was blown out by Sir Louie, since his daughter is celebrating her first birthday in September 14. It was just 'pansit', but thankful I was, for I have saved my money for supposed snacks. Anyways, it made me full.

Eli was teaching me how to treat 'Lan'. I actually knew it. I just don't want to do so, because it's so hard to do. And, it takes so many times. I'd rather wash cotton than Lan, while Sir Louie was pushing me to learn.

Nine, I was going home. Ten, I was home. I kissed my sleeping children. My teeth seem okay.

September 13, 2007

When the alarm clock rang, my body wanted to give up. I wanted to sleep again. But, I thought of my inspirations: credits, family, career, etc. Yet, I arrived at Eastland too early. Six-thirty it was. I was sleepy, thus I took a nap near the washing machine. Disturbances occurred.

Past eight, I could feel body ache. It decreased my energy. I suspected it was influenza. I wanted to lie down.

Before nine, Sir Louie called for a brief meeting. He talked about Ate Malou's birthday on Saturday. We're all invited.

After break time, I signed for a 7 to 7 work on Saturday and 6 to 2 work on Sunday. I did not know if I would be glad. All I wanted on Sunday is to go to Sta .Lucia East Grand Mall together with Hanna. I wanted to unwind and reward myself for being a hardworking one. But, it was postponed. I think, it would be better if we will re-schedule it on next Sunday.

Twelve, I tried to sleep. I think I have fallen asleep. However, headache came in, when I got up at 12:45. I worked slowly. Yet, I wished to meet my quota, though it's impossible.

Four-thirty, I asked permission to our encoder, since Sir Louie has gone home earlier, to prepare for his daughter's first birthday party. Arlyn permitted me. Thus, I finished my load, before I left. Before five, I greeted Ate Malou in advance. She already knew what I was feeling. Later, she and Ate Tess were kidding me.

Later, great rain poured down. I was on the way home. I was stranded in Bayan. I waited so long. I chilled when I tried to walk home through the rainy street. I did not want to ride for I was saving my money. When I arrived, Hanna has fever, too. I pity her. After I have taken Paracetamol and Alaxan, sweat started to build up. So, I took off my sweater. I felt okay. I could work tomorrow. 

September 14, 2007

I feel better when I woke up at 5, yet I slept again till 5:25. Then I half-bathed. I must not have a full bath due to my sickness last night.

I kissed my sleeping children before I left. I missed them so much. I have had no time last night to cuddle them up, since Mj has stopped me to do so, especially Zj. Hanna was 'tantrumic'.

Six-eighteen when I arrived at Eastland. I was waiting for Ate Pilar, so that I could borrow P100, since I only have P200 in my pocket. I have told it at eight. However, she has no money yet. I tried to borrow from Ate Rita, but she just saddened me. She wanted to lend me, but with interest. Ate Pilar has a good heart. She borrowed from someone and she handed it to me. She really cares. "God, please bless her."

When Ate Malou arrived, she approached me. I said I was okay now. She kids me, later. I could now say that she's a good companion.

Active I was now! I didn't feel any pain already.

Treatment of Lan was started by me at 9, since Eli was not yet present. Besides, I have got nothing to wash.

After break time, Cathy asked me, if I want to join in English Club, where in I have to pay P5.00 every time they hear me speak Tagalog. I immediately said, Okay! Then, I asked, "Who are the members?" I would love to do it.

Later Ate Rita and Ate Pilar asked me what course I have taken up. They have learned that it was unused and 'sayang'. But, I'm not ashamed of it. It is true that success is everywhere. I might be a supervisor of Eastland. Hehe.

Who knows?

I've got a lot of works to do. I never had a chance to sit. I started to fell backache. Thus, at 8:10 I finished all things I've to accomplish. I did IPR. I cleaned the area. Then, I bonded with my workmates.

I was home at 10 PM. Mj was wiping Hanna's forehead with damped cloth. I knew she has fever, the question I asked, instead was 'Naka-withdraw ka?'

Michael did the withdrawal. I made me sad, knowing that my children were both sick. Mj bought antibiotic for two. I was hoping she has bought vitamins.

After dinner, I questioned Mj's way of taking care of my kids. I asked her why they're always sick. She got mad, thinking I was thinking that's he was being careless. I did not want them ill because it affects our budget. I was just wondering why Zj and Hanna were often, almost every week or month, ill. I think, they're overly taken care of. I suspected the electric fan.

I have had a hard time catching sleep. It was after Mj condemned me and my 'paalam' that I would attend a birthday celebration tomorrow night, after our overtime work. She said, "Nakuha mo pang mag-enjoy, kahit may sakit ang mga anak mo." I was balancing the situation.

September 15, 2007

Minutes after I woke up, Hanna vomited. I pity her. Her body became leaner. Then, I whispered to her, "Pagaling ka, ha? Pag gumaling ka na, Jolibee tayo." She got up and joined me in my breakfast. She didn't eat. She has no appetite. She's 'matamlay'.

Later when I was taking a bath, she approached me, asking "Ba-bi tayo?" She couldn't forget my promise to her. She repeated it many times. I pity her again. When she wanted to come with me, she was crying and saying "Ba-bi, Ba-bi". She thought we're going to Jolibee at that wee time. I took her from Mj and got her down for a moment. I wanted to absent just to grant her wish. It would be the cure for her illness. Mj was just pushing me to leave.

I left Hanna, crying. I could still overhear "Ba-bi". My heart said "Don't leave'. I was so weary till I got there. I tried to forget the thought of it, but in my deepest love I failed. Yet, I managed to do my job.

I prayed to God. I asked Him to heal my kids. I would rather spend for their diapers, milk, and vitamins than to spend for their medicines or antibiotics.

Ten, Ate Pilar saw my rice. She hates to see it few compared to her packed lunch. She indeed cares. She advised me later to eat more because my work is laborious. I couldn't afford to get sick.

I claimed my pay slips, dated 082707 and 090307 and written P530.60 and P2075, respectively. The P100 was deduction. It was my payment for ATM card. I was so disappointed to the net pay. Two hours over time work was unpaid. I only have P1100 left on my account.

Ate Divine was collecting from me the P300 for our 'paluwagan'. I said 'I'm quitting' and I stated my reason. She then proposed that she would pay it and I would double-pay on the next 'hulugan' day. Good thing is she understands me.

Ten-forty-five, I have already nothing to do. I actually dilly-dallied. I loitered while conversing with my English-speaking workmates. They're game, huh! Through this, I was having a strong bond and tight relationship with them. In fact, I could name and characterize them all.

Joan Flores—She's not my cousin, but she's the first one who tells me how kind her grandmothers were. She's quiet.

Joan Usero—She calls herself Anjo.

Anna Posadas—She's not that amiable. I pity her.

Divina Gamboa--- I found her funny. She makes me laugh. She looks like my classmate, Cristy Garlan.

Marilou Feliciano—She's frank, yet kind. She's not plastic.

Loreta Pasco--- She's chubby one, who always finds time to converse with me even with a simple question.

Yolanda Pantig--- She's an old lady, who according to our workmates, she hates women and likes men.

Teresita Galang--- She's an experienced reviser, but she's always playing safe. She's fine.

Rita Cubillo --- She's a true-blue business woman. She's a niggard. I hate her being a business person.

Margie Rizaga--- She is the friendliest of all.

Pilar Valenzuela--- She's the kindest of all. She's caring and thoughtful, too. She calls me 'anak'.

Jowel Ramirez--- He's a tumble dryer, who once invited me to drink after 'sahod'.

Eliezer Sanchez—He's a chubby man, who taught me how to treat Lan.

I would not characterize Sir Louie Baisa, Ate Jocelyn Lucero, Ate Yolanda Lorin, Ate Josephine Alli, Benluz Labariento, and Arlyn, the encoder. They're all nice, too.

Seven PM, we went to Ate Malou's house. Only Eli and I were the boys in the group. I was so glad to join them. I was also thankful that they're true to me.

After eating, Emperador was served to us by the celebrant. Time did not pass boringly due to the laughter. We're all laughing at each other's jokes and jests, especially Ate Divine's.

I started to know them more closely. They also began to ask about me and my family.

After we have taken the brandy, we take beer. I was drunk already, when my talkative side came out. I began to join the conversation. We pursue speaking-in-English.

Also, I have had a chance to talk to Kathy. We talked about her relationship to a tomboy. I suggest, she must break up with her, for she couldn't get any goodness from her. Man, a real man, is what she needs.

I didn't know what time we left at Ate Malou's house. All I knew is that I was so happy at that time.

On the jeep, I vomited...

Twelve-ten when I got home. I threw up again. Good thing is Mj has been alert. She caught it using an aluminium basin. She was using in Hanna's damped cloth.

September 16, 2007

Seven when I woke up, my head was aching. I felt nausea. My vision was rotating, too. In short, I was experiencing a terrible hang-over. Mj was vexing me. She also forced me to get up, but I did not. I also declined to eat breakfast.

Though I was feeling bad, I still had a chance to talk to Mj about Hanna's check-up yesterday. I got mad when she told me that she paid P250 and P200 for doctor's fee and laboratory fee. I condemned it. She was reasoning out, but I pushed my point. I exemplified my deceased sister, Hannah, who was a victim of doctor's malpractice. I implied to her that she must not be too confident or too loyal to the doctors.

Then, I told her why Zj was frequently coughing and having colds. It's because she's drinking cold water carelessly.

Lunch time. Our viand was pork sinigang. However, I couldn't afford to eat more due to my feeling of nausea.

It was two when I got up and took a bath. After it, I went to Metrobank. I withdrew my salary there. I also changed my PIN.

Then, I went to the market to buy Hanna's antibiotic, etc...

Small world! Janice Gobris called me, saying 'Psst!' She's familiar, but I didn't know her name. I mean, I forgot it. She has been my classmate in RGCC. That, I've given her the numbers of our classmates, namely: Bernadette, Leonisa, and Sharon. They're close friends, pala. I purchased from her store, where she's working, a 'Buy One, Take One' hotdog, named Rosh Dog. We also exchanged mobile numbers.

I tried to sleep early. Bad thing is it was too noisy.

September 17, 2007

Backache disturbed the tightness of my sleep. It's indeed a sign of rheumatism. It hurts, when it's cold.

Today is unlucky day for me. In fact, traffic was very devastating. It made me late for 20 minutes.

At work, teasing has started. Ate Joan and Cathy were the promoters. Kathy seems like admiring me really.

I didn't sleep at 12 NN. Instead, I pursued washing. I have lots of load to do.

Afternoon. I signed an OT. We're going to overtime work from 4 to 7, starting today till Friday.

Three, Catherine and the rest wanted me to eat more. They advised me. They are like my Infinite friends. They care for me.

Revicon, I took, is effective. I've been so active still, though it was an overtime work already. Yet, eight PM, I stopped washing and faced my tickets.

While on the jeep, I was praying that Hanna's well already. Thanks God, she is! In fact, she's wide awake when I got home, While Mj and Zj were tightly asleep.

September 18, 2007

I wanted to close my eyes again at 5, but I pushed myself to get up. I must not be late. Thus, I arrived early at 6:30. I prepared my IPR. Today is the cut-off day for the reports. I must pursue a god ranking, which was second. I have 101% efficiency and 1001% productivity.

I have plenty of 'gawa'. LAN is a disturbance. It just delayed my washing work.

Today, teasing became more soundly that yesterday. Jowel and Eli also started. I just rode on it.

I was so tired at 8. Thus, I stopped and cleaned my place. I took a rest, while talking to some of them.

Ten, when I got home. Hanna has no fever anymore. Thanks God!

September 19, 2007

I changed my route. Instead of riding to Bayan, I had rather rode a jeep at Siyete y Medya, which is going to Cubao. It would lessen my effort in walking. I never mind if it's going to increase my fare allowance.

Seven: thirty-two when I arrived. I started immediately.

Sir Louie called all of us. He then thanked us, for our department is the highest department in terms of efficiency and productivity. He special mentioned me, too.

I was so crammed all day. I almost forgot to wee, but I was not tired, compared to those days, which I was not taking vitamins yet. Revicon helped me a lot.

At noon break, I took a nap.

My co-workers were very caring about me. They keep on asking if I did have a break, especially Catherine.

Eight, I stopped washing. I instead did my two-days IPR.

I got home at 10 PM.

September 20, 2007

My body wanted to sleep again, but my mind said, "Wake up! You have lots of works to do." That's true. I could not be absent. Sir Louie might go insane, if I will do.

Today. My 'kapalpakan' got out. Sir Louie said, "Dumadalas na, ha." He's not angry, but I have to be careful. Since, I've been always a scapegoat. Some would be free to their mistake and it would be rebound to me by Sir. It's okay.

I got home at 10 PM. I brought home the IPR's and tickets. I taught Mj how to do it, since I could not do it already at Eastland.

Mj told me that she has withdrawn only P500. I did not know why, but I guessed it would be deposited by whole tomorrow.

I slept after writing, while Mj was cutting my tickets. However, terrible toothache has disturbed my sleep. It made me sleepless through the night.

September 21, 2007

At two Am, I was still wide-awake, almost crying in pain. When I fell asleep, Mj woke me up 'naman'. I wanted to absent, but I did not want to lose some amount.

However, in my eagerness to arrive early at EMCI, I was gone astray in Pasig. I rode on a wrong jeep. I have no choice, but to ride off at the final destination. Then, I rode another to Jenny's Ave.

Since I was already late, which I could only 'in' at 11 AM, I went to Metrobank nearby to withdraw. Sad thing is my account was still empty.

Seven: fifty-one when I arrived at EMCI. I knew Sir Louie would warn me. However, I was not reprimanded for he met the 1st Revising Team. I was immediately awarded with an 'Instant Recognition Award Certificate'. The team was recognized for being the top performers for 5 consecutive weeks. I almost cried of joy.

Sir did not ask why I was late. I was the one, who reasoned out. I said that my alarm clock was low-bat. Later, we were given another reward. We chose among three—umbrella, pen, and tumbler. I preferred umbrella, since I was planning to buy one.

Twelve, I took a nap...

Today is Ate Tess' birthday. She treated us with pancit at 3 PM. I was so full, that Ate Malou o Ate Benluz gave me a plastic of rice. Ate Rita gave me her few pancit and pork steak. They wanted me to gain weight, indeed.

At four, I left Eastland. I went directly to Metrobank. However, my account was still empty. It disappointed me.

I got home at 5:30 PM--- tired and sleepy. I tried to take a nap, but I failed. Good thing is I felt better.

I couldn't forget the words, he said in front of my co-workers, while the awarding was taking place. He said, "Bilib ako kay Froilan, kasi nagtatapat ng pagkakamali. Sana sipagan at paghusayan mo pa. Congratulations!" I then thanked him. I was going to receive a certificate in connection with work. It was indeed my first time. Huh! I could use it in other company. It is a plus!

I slept early.

September 22, 2007

I arrived early at 6:22 AM because I left home early. Thus, I have withdrawn my partial salary at Metrobank-Tramo. It was only P2,300 now. I would have another amount to be received on my account.

I paid Ate Yo (P100) and Ate Rit (P100). Then, I ordered body spray from Ate Malou. She's dealing Avon. I would need it.

Most of my co-workers knew that Kathy was flirting with me, thus they keep on teasing us. Geh! She's game, huh!

We worked overtime till seven. I wanted to withdraw again, but I was scared to be held up. I might be victimized by the hungry people. Thus, I decided to do it tomorrow after work.

I got home at 8:29 PM, after I visited the working place of Janice Gobris. But, she's not there...

My kids were awake still. Mj got disappointed by my salary. She's afraid that my promise that we're going to dine in at Jollibee tomorrow might be postponed. But, I assured her, it will not.

I gave P1000 to Nanay. It's our credit to her, including our P300 weekly contribution.

September 23, 2007

Five-thirty when I arrived at Eastland. I started washing actively and immediately.

When Sir Louie arrived, he posted the list of nominated First Revising employees. My name was included there. We're ten in all.

I have a strong feeling that I could get the prize. If I would not, I would not be sad. I would be so disappointed. My job is the most laborious in all, thus I must be commended. The certificate and the prize at stake are both important to me.

Three, I was home. Hanna was sleeping, but late she awakened by noise.

After few drama of Mj, she prepared Hanna's clothes. She tends her get-up, too.

At the Jollibee, I was very disappointed and sad for Hanna' did not eat. She just bit few fries and sipped pineapple juice and that's it. She didn't even bite a portion of burger.

When we got home, Mj and I have had a misunderstanding about my money. She wanted to postpone again my payment to Ate Juliet. She was problemizing the milks of the kids, so as the budget for Zj's vaccination on Wednesday. She did not understand me. I have so many debts to pay and yet she keeps on reminding me another burden. I could not even have a certain amount for my needs. I wanted to enter in a barber shop to have my hair cut. I wanted to buy a coin purse. I wanted to have a necklace. But, all of these were all just dreams. I would rather buy milks, diapers, ant other baby's needs than to prioritize mine. 

September 24, 2007

The alarm clock rang at 5 AM. Mj turned it off, but she did not get up. She instead slept again. I knew she was awake. I did not rise up immediately. I thought of doing an absent, but I preferred to be present. Thus I rose up and took on my clothes, without even having a hot drink or a breakfast.

I do have two biscuits in my bag. I ate one of them, while walking.

Sadly, I was walking, thinking who was wrong between us. I was not! She's giving me all the burdens. What she's problemizing is just an iota, compared to mine. Besides, I could owe again, for my kids' needs. But my debt to Ate Juliet badly needs to be settled as soon as possible because it was overly due to my promise. I don't want to lose credibility.

When I arrived at EMCI, I busied up myself, so that I could forget my problem. But, it failed me.

Ten, I asked Kathy if I could owe from her even P100. She never failed me.

Past ten, Ate Malou handed me the body spray (Black Suede), I ordered from her.

I did not meet my quota today. We have no enough 'gawa'. In fact, we could have no overtime work today. Maybe, it's going to last till Friday. I did not know if I would be sad or would be glad about it. I need money, but I have to have a rest and enough sleep.

Walking through the rain is indeed fun. I enjoyed it at 5 PM, when I was going home. It is due to two reasons: I was eating an asado siopao and I have an umbrella and jacket.

Hanna was very glad to see me. I missed her, too. However, I couldn't show the same for her because I lied down immediately. I was not tired, but I have to keep quiet and to be aloof.

It was seven when I have had a chance to cuddle up Zildjian. Unfortunately, I could feel his temperature. It was not normal. That's why he was wearing socks. He's feverish. Though, it's not that high, I knew he's not that active. It annoyed me, especially when they planned to buy Amoxicillin. I began to wonder why he and Hanna had always sickness. I hate the fact that my salary was being spent mostly on their medicines. I could not even buy them vitamins because the antibiotics and medicines were the needed ones. I hate the fact that they were not cared of rightly. I knew Mj was still drinking cold water, which makes Zj coughs and gains cold. I think, she must be blamed for it. I told her many times, but she's indeed a hard-headed person. I have once told her that if he gets sick again, she will bear the expense. She must, now!

After dinner, which was like a breakfast, I sat, for a few minutes in front of the TV and I started to catch sleep under my blanket.

September 25, 2007

When the clock rang at 4:50, I did not rise up immediately. I waited if Mj would do the first move. But, she did not. Thus, I got up and went to CR. Minutes later I heard her get up and she started boiling water. It gladdened me. She then treated me hot coffee and breakfast. I ate without talking to her. I left without even kissing my kids, too.

Six-eighteen when I arrived at EMCI. I did not punch my ID yet. Instead, I went in and prepared my 'gawa'. But when I went out, I was prohibited by a kind lady guard, who's been kind to me since then. She asked why I've been even thinner now. I reasoned and blamed the heaviness of my work.

When I came back from the bundee clock, she then asked me how many kids di I have and how old my wife is. I told her the truth. She commented that I made a wrong timing of getting into a family. She finally offered me rice, so that I could save. I was so shy to receive it, but I promised that I would get it from her when the break time comes.

She's very kind to me, but I think I couldn't accept her kindness. It's all a sort of pity. I would instead do something, so that I could gain weight.

Ten. I did not see her. I instead buy rice in the canteen.

Twelve. I was very hungry. Thus, I went to my locker and munch my biscuits there.

Before four, I was exhausted already. I realized that I really have to take vitamins every day.

We have had an overtime work. It was still seven. I tried to be active and energized. I tried to get more tickets for quota's sake.

I got home at eight. Zj's okay now. Hanna was still wide-awake, so as my parents-in-law. Mj treated me dinner.

After eating, I started to catch sleep. I still did not talk to Mj. But, she already prepared my clothes. She hung it. 

September 26, 2007

It was not the alarm clock that wakes me up, it was Zildjian's loud cry. I got up to get him, but Nanay took care of him. I then saw Mj in the kitchen, starting to prepare my 'baon'. She was cooking rice. It's the first time ever, yet, I showed her no emotion. I was quietly preparing myself. I was treated by her with hot coffee and she was there in front, but we don't talk. I knew my in-laws knew about our state, but I don't care.

I met the lady guard again. She said, "Napanis tuloy..." I begged her pardon and explained why I did not get the rice. I said that in my hunger, I was tempted to enter immediately in the canteen. I think, she believed in me. Before we parted ways, she offered me again, but I told her that I have 'baon'.

We have so many 'gawa', but I think I haven't met my quota.

Tired at more than 11 hours of hours, I was. Thus, before seven PM, I stopped working. It was when I finished cleansing the two washing machines. Sir Louie directed me to do so because white fabrics turned pinkish. Good thing is I wasn't blamed. Jowel might be the culprit.

Eight-ten when I got home. My kids were still awake. Hanna was still active. Zj was not that happy. I knew he underwent vaccination today.

September 27, 2007

I got up when the alarm clock rang. Mj was still sleeping. She was just disturbed when I went out the mosquito net. Nanay was cooking fried rice when I saw her. She cooked rice, too. Before Mj rose up, she already has made cups of coffee for us. I appreciate her. However, I was quiet when I was taking my breakfast.

Before five-thirty, I left home. It was when Zildjian woke up. I kissed and cuddled him up for a few seconds. I have had a chance to kiss my sleeping daughter, too.

Six-eighteen when I arrived at EMCI. Thus, I decided to eat first my packed 'baon', which were hotdogs and rice. I saved ¾ of my rice for the break time.

I started early. I also pursued cleansing the machines. However at 9 AM, Sir called me to tell me that I was indeed the culprit. He blamed me not. He was blaming the washing machines. I felt bad for myself. I was so ashamed. Thus, I accepted it, though I knew it was not the washing machine that made it.

Later, Sir told me that it was the extractor that made the white fabrics turned pinkish. He directed me to clean it. So I did. However, I still was very sad. I was thinking of quitting the job. I've always been 'palpak'. Good thing is Sir Louie is kind. He never condemned me. He just said "Last na 'to."

It was after lunch break when my sad feeling has gone. I totally accepted the fact that it's part of learning. But, I have to be extra-careful, so that it would not happen again.

I have new batch of co-workers. One of them is Rosalie Flores. I talked to her last day, which my mother is Flores too. Thus, I was calling her 'cousin'. She's fine, huh!

Four PM, it was the beginning of our overtime work. I was so active. I have got lots of loads, too.

Six-thirty, I stopped washing and I faced my IPR.

Eight, I was home. Only Hanna was still awake. Mj was irritated. I think, I have to talk to her as soon as possible. I kissed my daughter, before I closed my eyes. She replied, "Go nay". "Good night!" I told her.

September 28, 2007

Mj was the first one who got up. She them immediately cooked rice. Later Zj cried. Nanay took him out. I think we disturbed their sleeps.

Since we have no breakfast, I handed P20 to Mj for 'pandesal'.

Mj prepared for me beforehand two chops of fried fish. She also added pandesal' with peanut butter fillings on my bag. In return, I gave her my ATM card and told her to withdraw for kids' needs. 

I kissed sleeping Hanna and wide-awake Zildjian before I left.

Happily I walked through jeepney terminal. i was indeed chanting a song--- a song which has no relation with my feeling, "Boulevard of Broken Dreams'.

Minutes before 6:30 AM, when I arrived. I waited till the required time of getting-in. I started washing immediately. I have two days credit of IPR, thus I have to meet it today.

Ten-forty, I was rough-drafting some suggestions to be dropped on the box. Here are the areas to be suggested: time of work, high prices in canteen, reward for the top performers, pay slip and payroll system, rules and regulation's manual.

I just did not know when to do it. i could not have time--- free time.

Twelve, I stopped washing and faced my IPR. Wew! I have got do many lacking.

Three, I met Mam Lea, HRD Personnel. She said, "Froilan, magpagupit ka nga. Ang haba ng buhok ko." I answered, "Bukas na po kasi wala pa suweldo." I felt glad that she still knew me. I reckon, I'm 'sikat na'. Hehe. Thus, I have to have a new haircut. I will show to her that I did.

Before four, Sir hailed me and directed to rewash those fabrics that I accidentally damaged. He instructed me new procedure. But, he told me that it was not a trigger. I could do it, whenever I want to.

Past four, I could feel flu approaching my system. I could also feel colds. My body started to ache. I wanted to lie down. Thus, it made me low-bat. My speed lowered down.

Before seven, I successfully relieved the damaged fabrics. I was very glad for that result. I then think of way how to thank Sir Louie for giving me the chance to mend it. 

We over time work till seven. I rushed home. I got home at 8:10. I was exhausted.

Mj showed me the receipt of her withdrawal. She only has withdrawn P600.  I computed it. It was correct.

I did not tell her that I was sick. Instead, I sleep early. 

September 29, 2007

Great rain disturbed my sleep. It was past three. I have had a hard time catching sleep again. Plus, bad feeling was starting to grow. I wanted to absent. But, I have to work.

I waited for Mj to get up. When she did, she immediately cooked rice. She has no clue about my sickness, till I left to Eastland.

Slowly, I walked through the rain. I was afraid I might collapse. Good thing I arrived at Eastland early and safe.

Past eight, I asked Sir Louie if I could go home. I told him that I have flu. He did not disagree. Then, I instructed Fritz about the washing procedures. He was going to do my job temporarily.

Nine, my flu became worse. I wanted to lie down. I couldn't wait for 11 AM. But, I can't do nothing. I still washed. Though, I took it slow it still made me feel bad.

Ten, I tried to eat, despite of my loss of taste. Bad thing is I never made it. There were left over rice and viand.

Past ten, Ate Yolanda handed me down two Paracetamol tablets. I took in one of them. I hoped it would make me better. However, I was decided to go home.

Ate Malou taught me how to make an undertime slip or gate pass. It was after she kidded me. She told me also that I have to take vitamins because the nature of my work needs resistance and energy. \

I left EMCI at 11:30. The lady guard advised me to get well soon because if I would still be absent for 3 consecutive days, I would be fired.

It was when great rain fell. My umbrella seemed useless. It was blown away. The rain penetrated on it. Thus, I have to stop over.

Before taking a ride, I went to Metrobank. I was very frustrated, though I knew that our salary would be given on Monday, when I saw the signage: Offline. I have no money already on Monday. I have to have my hair cut. I have to buy vitamins, Hay! Devastating! I was so mad! I wanted to condemn accounting department for two weeks delay of our salary. They're fooling us already. ATM did not help it. Actually it jeopardizes our lives.

It was raining still when I rode off the jeepney. I have no choice but to walk home, despite of my condition.

When I arrived home, Mj approached me immediately. She then has known that I have flu. She directed Michael to withdraw. However, he has withdrawn nothing. Alas! I wanted to go to Bautista tomorrow, for its Jano's birthday. I wanted to pay him, too.

I was also worrying about my debt to Ate Juliet. I knew she was wondering too, why. She couldn't hear from me.

I have no fever, but my head was aching terribly.

Before I sleep, I made a rough-draft of suggestions, which I'm going to drop in the suggestion drop box. It goes like these:

1. Changing the regular time of work. Sleep is one of the basic needs of every individual. It affects the workers very much. Thus, I suggest, change the time of work, from 7:00-4:00 to 8:00-5:00. It will make us more productive. A worker who has lack of sleep is less productive. The number of reject increases, as well.

2. Lowering down the prices at the canteen. The prices at the E<CI canteen are mostly unreasonable. It jeopardizes our budget. Because of this, most of us took our hunger for granted. That's why I'm suggesting the lowering down of the prices of the foods at the canteen. Hungry worker often fails to be efficient and productive.

3. Reformatting the payroll system. Since there's 1 week 'pondo', why pay slips and salaries are always given late? We work hard every day, so that we could have better lives. Late salary affects us badly. Therefore, I suggest the reformatting of the payroll system. No more 'chopped-chopped' salaries! No more excesses. Make only one payslip, including the total overtime for one week, basic pay, other earnings, and allowance. Then, deduct us also with all deductions make it weekly. If there's really a need to have a one week 'pondo', so be it. But, I think, you must pay us on time and in whole. You could save ink and paper on this, accounting effort, as well. Instead of having two or more payslips, make it one. We deserve on-time and complete or whole salary.

4. Furnishing every employee with rules and regulations manual. Frankly, when I signed the contract at HRD, I never had a chance to read the rules and regulations. And, though, there's one, posted on the bulletin board, I still have no chance to read and comprehend them all, especially the penalties. I suggest, furnish us with rules and regulations manual. Don't think that it is against your cost reduction program. You can charge it on us. But, don't forget its advantages. It will make us more abreast with the Don'ts and Do's of EMCI. If we do have copies, violations would be avoided. Violation-free company is a quality firm.

I tried to catch sleep, despite of what I was feeling. 

September 30, 2007

At wee time, I was already wide-awake. I suffered from terrible headache till day light.

I have been a bed-ridden for one day. Mj was serving me foods on the bed. I only get up when I would pee.

Alas! I have taken a tablet of paracetamol, my headache’s gone. Yet I stayed on the bed, hoping to retrieve sleepless times. I think I have fallen asleep somehow.

It was five when I got up and watched TV, but I did not stay in front for a long time. I have to sleep early because I never completed 8 hours of sleep last night.