April 17, 2006
Today
is Baby Marge's ninth month birthday. I could say that she was developed well
at her age. She's so mobile. She couldn't stay in one position. She loves to
grab something. Thus, she often has 'pasa’? In fact, today, she got 'bukol' on
her forehead. But it's ok! Growing up involves bumps.
The better
side is that she's advanced, compared to her two cousins, who are much older
than her. She could now stand on her own, I mean... supportless. I have seen
her standing for 5 to 10 seconds. And she is starting to climb even though she
couldn't walk yet.
About IQ, I think,
and I wish, she's intelligent. Imagine, when she was being asked "Where is
Little Hanna?", she would quickly look at her picture (positioned at the
divider). That was just one of the proofs of her smartness.
Another
wonderful thing about her is that she is walking like a ballet dancer.
Aheem!?She wants to be a ballerina?? Why not?! She's got the pre-requisites.
This day, Mj
and I talked about the impossibility and the possibility of having the tenancy.
We were both restless, worried, and afraid. We desired for it in the highest
level.
Tito
Jay called and promised again to Mj. He set dates when he'll send us money (May
15 or 25 for house and June for lot). I could wait for it but I could not
afford anymore to be disappointed again.
April 18, 2006
Last
night, I decided not to mind Mj due to her being laidback about the idea of
going abroad. She apologized to me, yet I partly have forgiven her.
Nine AM, we
went to Cadcad. Mj (with Hanna) wanted to see the nipa hut --- where we're
supposed to dwell. We were still worried. However, Calove and Tita Lo
personally appointed us as their caretakers and told Nanay to tell Elek about
their personal preference.
I wanted to
jump for joy at that moment. I was overly happy to win the tenancy, so as Mj. I
could see it to her eyes. I suspect, they really like us to be their tenants
than Reno and Elek. Thanks for Mama's wonderful garden despite of hardship in
water supply and thanks for Mama's love of gardening. Somehow, she has helped
us.
Thus, I was
inspired to work. IN fact, I pump the well (with the help of Tiyo Ruben) even
though it was so hard. I just want to showcase my industry and interest.
Five PM when
we go home. I excitedly told it to Mama. we talked about it till evening, so as
other related issues. She too is glad to know our success.
When Jano
arrived at past 9, he asked me about something, till we ended up in word
battle. He seems to be unhappy of my soon-life in Boso-Boso. According to him,
I've to get a company job for SSS' sake. I fight for my side. And I hope he
accepted that he's wrong!
April 19, 2006
I couldn't
sleep tightly last night. Past three, I was still wide awake. It may be because
of 'exagge' excitement. Thus, I got up when Jano left at 5 AM. Mama and I had
planned to wake up early for cashew purposes. So, we did. And, I also had
accomplished my promise to Tiyo Ruben --- talahib sticks.
Then, Mama and
I prepared plants and root crops to be brought to Cadcad. It is better to start
planting them now.
Also, I cut my
hair. My cuteness was now visible and noticeable again... *&%#@!
I think, I
couldn't afford to wait too long for our new life in Boso-Boso. I'm very
excited to start all over again --- with our pretty baby. I could still
remember Mj and my short or ephemeral residence in Polot. It has been a
semi-miserable life for the two of us. We have experienced scarcity and
starvation. We have also had a dramatic fight. However, we're still there with
each other. And now we're about to begin a new horizon. I just hope it'll be a
quite different from the past -- I mean, different yet for good or better than
that.
"Lord,
thank you very much! You've never disappointed us. Please bless us all and help
us to our upcoming dream utilization and actualization. Also, bless Calove
Family. Make them kinder to us and to everybody. Amen."
April 20, 2006
My sleep was
disturbed by the noises created by the king in his morning routine. Thus, when
he left Mama sought help from me. Then I went down the hill to pick out cashew
seeds. Those are of big help to us.
Seven, I
started to wait and anticipate for Calove. I wanted to begin planting 'gabi'
and 'ube'. I could not do anything here but to wait. In fact, every minute
seems so long for me. I would be glad if we could now start living there. I
couldn't resist myself from desiring it.
I wanted to go to
Rancho, but I have no money. I asked Florang-utan to pay her debt to me so I
could leave. She declined. Deadbeat! She broke Marge's frame mirror, that's why
she owed me P45.
In my ennui, I went
down the hill. There I had temporarily forgotten it. I made myself busy for a
productive way. Then I set my mind and dwelt it into new thought. I have fill
of artistic ideas lingering here in my skull and it will be activated very soon
in Cadcad. As a matter of fact, I have made tonight an artwork. It was a coffee
painting which shows kettle on it.
Before I sleep, I
asked God to total and extreme-makeover Flor Rhina. She's our greatest problem.
Her attitudes always had been so annoyingly despising to us. She's not doing
better anymore... I wished upon Him to change her displeasing personality to
pleasing.
April 21, 2006
My eyes said,
"Don't get up yet!", but my mind wanted to. So, I rose up and started
preparing stuffs and myself for Boso-Boso reasons.
While waiting, I
picked out nails around. And, I have also had two cashew seedlings, which I
transplanted. I hope they survive.
Ten, while watching
TV, Mj and Hanna arrived. It was an unexpected visit. It gladdens me. However,
after a few minutes, she stated bad tidings. An unexpected problem arises when
Reno called Elek yesterday. I strongly blamed Nanay for this. She did not tell
Elek about what we have agreed upon by Calove and what Calove told her --- to
tell Elek that they were already not preferred to caretake his properties in
Cadcad. I felt mad! She did not only put Mj and I to disappointment, worry and
sadness, but she put Ka Sonny to crossroads.
Mj, Mama, and I
talked about it. I could learn that she got angry to her own mother. thus, I
had a chance to confide that I felt the same. We tried to think of diversities,
but we could not deny that we would be so much frustrated if Calove declares
Reno and Elek as his preferences.
Mama, too, was
disappointed. Yet, she strengthens us.
I told Mj that if we
are not the ones to be considered, I will rebel. I will go back to Bulan alone
and leave them to Nanay. I will show them what they did ---- that their
decision is unfair, wrong, and devastating. I will stay there and will not
communicate with them regularly. I hope I can do that to my own beloved
daughter.
When Mj and baby
Hanna were fetched by them, Mam and I talked about it. But before that Mj gave
me P50, she asked from any of the girls (Nanay, Lola or Tita Lo), so that I
could attend the first birthday party of Akisha on 23. I have told her before
she left about why I don't want to go with them --- because I'm angry and I
will just be irritated to see them (who are the reason of this strife).
Then, I went to
'baba' to cut the bamboo, I saw yesterday. I temporarily have forgotten the bad
thoughts.
'Lord Jesus, I thank
You for this. It made me strong and faithful to You. I knew You are just
testing my faith and You do not want me, Mj and Margaret to live like a broken
family. I knew You already saved the tenancy for me... Lord God, I want to know
the truth as soon as possible. And please forgive me for distrusting You, for
being judgmental to Reno and Elek's capacities and for being opportunist. You
know me well, oh Lord. I just want a happy family. Bless us, oh Lord.
Amen."
April 22, 2014
It’s so cold this morning yet I tried to fight it because I would leave later.
Thus, I “heat up” my body by picking out cashew seeds.
Eight AM, I was already here in Rancho. I was on time.
I helped in slaughtering the pig. It was my second time to do so.
Eleven, Yaya Fe called, all the way from Bulan. She actually wanted Elek to
talk with, but the latter wasn’t around. Jing talked to her instead. It was a
saddening call. She confirmed that she was permitting Nono to care-take
Calove’s property. It frustrates me. I was partly afraid that I might be
disregarded, though Calove personally talked to me about it.
I realized, Calove’s offer was really favorable, that nobody would decline, and
everybody would be interested.
When Nanay and Elek arrived from the market, they have learned about the call.
I could feel Elek’s happiness. It’s natural but she must not be. It hurts. I
don’t want it to happen. Our future will be risky.
Nanay announced that Elek-Nono and Me-Mj were the caretakers. I don’t know if
it is only her decision or Calove’s. But the truth was it consoled me, somehow.
It would be fine, though Mj does not agree on having housemates.
Mj was complaining (again) about the laziness of her sisters. She wanted to
flee from this crowded, noisy house. So do I! Thus, I told her to be patient
while we’re not yet in Cadcad.
April 23, 2006
Today is Akisha Mikaela’s first birthday. We’re all busy. I helped Tatay in
cubing the potatoes and carrots. Then, Mj and I went to Gloria Heights to do
some preparations there. And 1PM, we’re been occupied in helping Immaculata
couple. They would surely not judge us as lazybones. In fact, it was a tiring,
terrible day.
But before I forget, eleven, Tito Nick called to make sure the celebration was
going better. Then he talked to Mj about his ‘padala’ to her. It would be after
all his promises to others. Later, Mj told him about going abroad. He’s willing
to help her. Best thing, she was told to apply in Canada.
All in all, the day has been happy and fulfilling for everyone, especially for
the celebrant’s parents. Hanna, although wearing a new yet not so elegant
dress, has for the first time been a part of a celebration which I could say
“grandeur”. She has had a picture with the two clowns. In fact, one of them
liked her because she resembles his daughter.
Mj contracted the clowns for Hanna’s upcoming birthday. She asked for their
numbers. And I’m a bit jealous of Mj’s conversation with them especially with
the clown named Raymond, who, according to her, is cute. Hmp!
Seven, when we got home. I wanted to go home in Bautista so that I could bring
Mama and Flor any of the dishes, cooked by Tatay. They are waiting and
expecting for me. Yet, they, especially MJ, stopped me in doing so. Thus, I
rest and sleep early at 9.
April 24, 2006
Hanna woke up early, so she disturbs my sleep. Yet I rose up to attend her
playing mood, while Mj was sleeping still. Nanay then served me a hot coffee
while waiting for Mj to get up. She’s so kind and caring, huh!
After a short while, Me-Ann called. She wanted her sisters and in-laws to come
at their residence. Ten, when we arrived there. Mj and I initiatively swept the
post-party clutters while the industrious Gregorio couple was
singing-along-out-of-tune, through the videoke machine. Mj and I sang after
sweeping. I sang my favorite songs such as “Here I am”, “Californication”,
“Unwell” and so much more. It was so hard to get 90% but I got the highest 87%
score among them. The machine says, “You got it!”.
Two o’clock, we go back home because the Immaculata couple would claim their
package sent by Tito Jay.
Mj was complaining from her terrible headache. Thus, I attend to Hanna.
Three, the package was opened. Mj secretly got a new wristwatch, which is
supposed to be for Art. But Mj did not give it to me because she suspects I
will just give it to one of my brothers.
Four, I decided to go home. Mj was packing Marge’s stuffs, but I told her to
unpack when she told me she was be given P50 only by Nanay. She got angry. So,
do I. I wanted to but I couldn’t afford to earn money here for their needs
during their stay. Thus, I went back home alone. Sad.
Diana was here when I arrived at 5. She was in great crisis. I pity her. And
all I could do is pray for her and her family.
Flor and I had a big fight again. She’s the meanest person I ever have known.
She needs an overhauling.
Jano arrived late. He had no ‘pasalubong’ at all. But it’s OK. Then, for the
first time, Mama, Jano and I had a nice, long conversation about the past
celebrations we attended, going abroad of Mj, our future and business matters.
He also related to us his dreams. He then has learned that MJ and I were not
just an ordinary couple. We also have dreams.
I thanked God for all the blessings—such as the recent party, Mj’s decision,
and good health. I asked Him for Flor’s over-all physical and moral
metamorphosis.
April 25, 2006
I was so sleepy, yet I got up to collect cashew seeds. I hadn’t taken coffee
yet, still I went on ---because the earlier, the better.
Since, Jano did not take-home groceries last Friday, we’re now on the crisis.
We have no viand. We were forced to sell cashew seeds for a low price.
One PM, I fell asleep though summer heat was terrible. Four, when I got up.
Five, I started to feel emptiness. The thought of living in Cadcad occupies my
mind. I wonder when we are going to start moving in.
Another thought busying my head was the house in Polot.
I couldn’t resist myself in worrying too much about my valuable things kept in
there.
Nine, Jano and his girl arrived. He directed me to cook the pork they brought
home. So, I did in a jiffy.
I slept early at 10.
April 26, 2006
Six AM, I was already wide awake. I waited Geraldine to leave before I eat
breakfast. But while sipping coffee and while she was dining, I approached her
about Mj’s decision of going abroad. I have learned that Jano had told her
already. I could see her willingness from the start I opened. I told her the
whole story how Mj was forced to do so, what her problems and what obstructs
her and what she was looking and considering for.
At the end of our talk, I gave her the landline number of Mj so that she could
call her in the soonest time and so that they can talk it over. I asked her to
help in convincing MJ to decide now. The sooner, the better, I said, and she
agreed.
I wanted to remind Gie about our debt (Hanna’s natal expenses) but I decided to
let the situation do the job.
The whole day was very warm. Thanks, God, water supply truck arrived. Thus, I
have had a bath.
Mama and I earned P30 today from attending Laurence. Tintin did a laundry in
Bukal.
I almost spent my day in collecting cashew. I have collected almost one ‘salop’
today. But 4 PM, while waiting for another wind to pass through the cashew
trees, Ken and his kids went down. I’ve learned that he climbed up. I followed
him and stayed there hoping he’ll be ashamed of his daringness. But he wasn’t.
He really was hard-faced. As the result, I was forced to be wise. Tomorrow, I
will get up early so I would be the first to do the collection. I will climb
the trees again.
“Lord God, please help us in cashew seeds collection. Make me safe. Forgive us
for being greedy. You know how hard Mama worked for it to bring into fruits.
So, she deserves to have the yields. Amen!”
April 27, 2006
Four, Mama got up. She awakened me at 5. I told her that it was too early, but
I was forced to do so because we have an agenda today.
The dark was still visible when we went down with the hope of having a
plentiful of harvests.
Fifteen minutes or something later, Yapot approached Mama with disgust about
the roots of cashew trees – he cut off before. It ends up into a vehement
battle. I would not keep myself quiet because it was Mama who was in trouble.
He accuses me of something I was not –that I was a criminal. He also minded my
being jobless. He has been nonsense and irrational. Yet I did my very best to
make him realize that I was in the right side. I also mentioned their illegal
consumption of electric current. I assured him that it will be known to Meralco
soon.
When we went up, I followed him, so as Mama. In front of their house, he was
about to attack me by his clenched fists, but I showed him that I was armed (by
bolo). He started again to be nonsense and naïve. He repeated the words he said
all over again till Mama and kept quiet.
Despite of what had happened. I still went down to pick out and climb cashew.
There was no reason to be afraid of. Yet, I brought bolo.
Evening, I observed if he would use electricity. He did not. But I knew he was
still illegally connected. At least I had scared him.
I asked God for pardon. I also wished that I could leave here ASAP.
April 28, 2006
I was awakened by water supply called by Mama. I got up in a jiffy and went
down without even having a hot coffee or something. My immortal enemy might
come down before me, so I must be the first. So, I did. I was just being
careful.
Today is the best day to go to Cadcad and to stay there permanently and
privately. I’m waiting for them to fetch me.
I watched “Mobile Kusina” and I’ve learned the menus of putopao, Mongolian rice
and lakatan-que.
My eyes’ direction was always pointed at the road all day, hoping
that Calove’s Adventure stops. I consoled myself instead that tomorrow they
might come.
Mama too was anxious to our Cadcad living. She already told Tito Ben about it,
as well as Mj’s decision of going overseas. I could not blame her for she
wanted to tell her siblings or her relatives that I am not ne’er-do-well, who
do nothing, that I’m doing an action secretly to see the bright future. I can’t
blame Mama for her irresistible mouth. She only wanted to uplift my morale and
change the wrong perception of his siblings about me and my family. I was so
thankful that I’m her pride. And I could say that mothers really know best.
Nine, Jano was not home yet. We’re all hungry. The stores here in the boondocks
were all closed. So, I decided to reinvent the plain rice. I cooked ‘adobo
rice’. It was yummy!
I prayed to God to expedite the realization of Calove’s plan for us. I asked
Him too for forgiveness.
April 29, 2006
I got up at 5. I then fried the hotdogs for our breakfast after Jano left. Mama
and I did not eat yet instead, we went down to gather cashew seeds. We must do
this to enable us to gain money and to keep away Ken from climbing the trees.
Past seven when I was finished in the job.
Then, I started the never-ending anticipation for Calove.
I watched TV. I’ve learned something new such as “Hainanese chicken (steamed
chicken in pandan leaves with three different sauces), aioli
(mayonnaise-seasoned garlic) and smores (grilled marshmallows sandwich).
I overheard Mama and Tito Sam’s conversation. They have tackled me and Mj’s
plan of working abroad. I was semi-angry and semi-proud to Mama’s
talkativeness. I could see my uncle’s envy. He was being critical and
prejudice. He’s questioning Mj’s capabilities and he’s making the chance of
flying to Canada impossible. “We will see!”
We sold our cashew seeds. We earned P450 from them. Not bad!
I anticipate the first Saturday of Pinoy Big Brother Ten edition. The show,
then advertised the next edition. I’m qualified in terms of age. After a few
double-minding, I decided to join the search. I’ve asked God about this before.
Thus, I must not spoil the opportunity. It excites me. I should not forget the
audition dates. It is to be held on June 17, 18, 23 and 24, 9:00 AM – 3:00 PM.
I prayed to God before closing my eyes to sleep at past eleven.
April 30, 2006
Six, I got up and prepared myself in cashew seeds collection. This is my
makeshift usual chore I was doing since last week.
While taking a rest from climbing the cashew trees, I thought of something.
Taiwan is more handsome than I. Thus, we will take the audition on June 17
together. One of us must be chosen. Better, if both of us. Why not!?
Nine, I watched TV. I’ve learned that term coagulation is the process of
turning solid into semi-solid state.
Quarter to ten, Taiwan texted Jano. He, Jen and Yoshimi would visit Mama—who
has never yet seen her 2nd grandchild.
Mama and I were very excited to see Yoshimi. She was anxious to see her. I was
consoling her. I also pursue my chore, while waiting. Past one, when they
arrived. We’re both happy to see them. I excitedly gave her Hanna’s used dress
and Hanna’s supposed-to-be baby dress.
Our home became merrier due to the arrival of little angel. If only my Hanna
Margaret was also here.
When we’re about to sleep, Mama and I couldn’t get a tight sleep due to
mosquitoes. Damn! I didn’t know exactly what time I was fallen asleep. All I
knew was that I have had an insomniac night.
By the way, Rodea and April dropped by here at 3 PM. We talked,
later, only Mama, I and April. We had a long conversation. I’ve learned many
facts such as Jasper-Aileen upcoming nuptials, my ex-co-workers’ lives and
their new lives. They also have learned something new from me.
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