March 22, 2006
When I woke
up late at 8:25 AM, I started to feel the usual. But I have my book 'A Thought
A Day' that tells me "Nothing is more destructive to a soul's inner peace
than unreasonable worries and fears; hated and passions." That's right!
All of these are the children of unreason, unbelief, and unhappiness.
"Thank
you, Lord for these learning. Make me a better person even though I'm jobless.
Amen!"
Thus, I
compiled my not-yet finished projects such as 'Tinta' and 'Curio-City' greeting
cards. I made them into booklets, and they are fabulous! I've always been
dreaming that someday, somehow, I could publish my literary pieces whether it
would be for sale or for keepsake. I could never imagine the feeling of reading
a book, I write personally.
Then, I made
a paper ball. And... I pursued Curio-City cards-making. After I was drained of
ideas, I started writing captions to be printed in my planned Black and White
shirts. I've made more than 100 which are partly copied, partly invented, and
totally copied. They are all amazingly funny. I could not afford to wait for
the realization period.
"Lord
Jesus, help me please to realize the 'Black and White Boutique', 'Curio-City'
and book-publishing plans. I know I will be a good entrepreneur. I could not
just earn for myself, for my family, but also, I could help people who are
jobless and seems-hopeless. Thank you! Amen."
March 23, 2006
I got up from
sleeping foam with a smile in my face though I knew we have no healthy
breakfast. Then, I dusted the divider, Jano's room and the window and I swept
the floor, before taking in the usual coffee.
The day seems
so weary and gloomy, yet I turned out wonderful after I have eaten "555
patties", I cooked. It's deliciously yummy! I decided to include this menu
in Baby Marge's birthday. Children, as well as adults for sure will like it.
I
continue writing BNW captions and sketching for Curio-City greeting cards.
Then, I started writing self-help ideas from books. I decided to make or
compile booklet of self-help's that enable to give incremental color to my
life. In fact, the first four of it is the '46 Ways to Make Marriage More
Exciting". Someday, somehow, I could apply it. Also, I copied from the
book 'A Thought A Day' the 'A Recipe for Happy Life'. This isn't delicious in
our tongue; however, it is life-changing activity if you or we fulfill or cook
it well. It will also be useful and will be used as present to friends. Why
not?!
I prayed to
God, thanking Him for the blessings of life, happiness, contentment, love, wisdom,
and health. I wished that Taiwan now is happy, unworried, and excited to his
upcoming baby, and Jenny may have an easy, safe giving birth. I also included
my daughter in my prayer. And, lastly, I asked forgiveness to my sins and to
the whole world's sins.
March 24, 2006
I could
hardly rise. I thought back my planned-things-to-do and I remembered that I was
scheduled to pursue 'Tinta' scriptwriting. Then, I started the day.
I re-read the
few last sequences of 'Tinta' because I almost forgot the story I am supposed
to make. I've written one sequence (Seq.50) and stopped for a while. I think I
have to do one sequence a day to ensure the quality of my project.
Then, I
decided to compile business-related ideas. I cut out info from newspapers and
pasted it on a glossy paper. It's not just an art, it is also a source of
knowledge. I want it to be a useful book or compilation for a future reference.
Hanna will be the first beneficiary. I always wanted to buy, to have a book.
That's why I am personalizing it.
I understand
now why I was stressed by over-staying in Rancho, it's because I could not do
my hobbies-- art working, writing, reading, collecting, gardening, fixing, etc.,
as often as I want to.
Quarter to
five, Jano arrived. I could see his happiness. It might be due to his
'pasalubongs'. In that, I felt no more intimidation, for the first time.
My prayer was
mainly about Ate NingNing and her son, Eking. I also wished for Jano's safety
every day of his trip.
March 25, 2006
Seven, I woke
up and started the general living room cleaning. I redesigned them, which is
Mama's design. She liked it. I made it simple, elegant, and minimal.
Then, I made
treasure box made from a hard carton. I'll give it to Mj so that she could keep
letters in there. I haven't finished it yet. I will need paints (gold, white
and black), glue, and tissue paper before it will be presented to her.
I've learned
from 'Art Jam', the arts called and originalized by Pablo Picasso and 'I forgot
the name'---- "cubism". It is an art (painting or sculpture) showing
the different views of the subject. It is like abstract, but not quite. Soon, I
will be doing an example of it.
Today is the
monthsary of my script 'Tinta'. I am supposed to be finishing it but it's so
hard to do so. Yet, I will still work on it even for a sequence a day only.
Talented
"Little Big Star" finalists made me cried in joy and admiration. I
remember my daughter, that I could see singing talent at. I dreamt of someday
she'll become a famous singer. Who knows?!
Gie
arrived at 8. Jano, she said, was still on the road. She was forced to spend in
rice because we're out of stock. In fact, we only had instant noodles for
supper. Mama just told her that we ate rice.
March 26, 2006
Last night, I
was irked by Jano's statement about P150 he gave to Mama, which was paid to our
indebtedness. That was why when I woke up, I could feel the same feeling
towards him. In fact, it becomes annoyance. My uneasiness doubled. I've been
aloof.
Mama and I
sense his closed handedness as if he needed a great, I mean, a huge amount of
money. I don't want to talk ill about him, so I just wish he'll understand us
here. He must be thankful that he's blessed of a good job.
I thanked God
that the couple left for 'I don't care'. I felt at home again. Thus, I have
made a booklet--- a blank booklet, for my script to be written after 'Tinta'. I
named the book 'Ang Libro ni Margarita' because I'm dedicating it to Hanna Margaret,
and I titled my unwritten script--- 'Lady K'.
When the two
arrived, Mama's and my world turned upside down. Jano got angry due to
waterlessness. The supply didn't arrive...What can we do? It was his fault. If
only he gave the money last night or early morning, we would have been
supplied. As the result, we asked Tito Sam if we could buy water from his drum.
Good thing, he's been kind...
Watching TV
very late at night is in fact a learning experience. I could learn new--- like
one of the longest words (I don't know if it is included in a
dictionary/lexicon. "Supercalifragilisticexpliadocious". I guess it's
an expression.
I included
'him' in my prayer. I asked God to protect him always and financially bless and
heal his loosing mind.
March 27, 2006
Before I took
in breakfast, I first swept the floor. It's the usual routine I was doing here.
Then, I started reading Philippine Men's Health I saw Jano’s room. I did
take-noting.
Nine, Ka
Sonny unexpectedly arrived from Cadcad. He told me to go with them. Thus, I
packed up. There in Rancho I happily kissed my Hanna. She was scheduled to a
vaccination today.
While waiting
for Hanna, I realized that Espinosas are still in crisis. They pawned jewelry
again. Hanna's out of milk, too. However, I've heard that Tito Jay sent 'lapad'
to Nanay. I thanked God.
Mj and Nanay
talked to me about Tito Jay's kindness. He will send us money to roof our house
in Polot. They called him 'kasi'. I reckon they also asked him to redeem our
'lupa' there so we can have source of income. Secretly, it gladdens me, so as
Mama when I told her about it. She's been so supportive to me.
Mj and Hanna
come with me here because Calove told it so. One hour ago, they arrived from
Cadcad to fetch my 'mag-ina'. There stay was so short, yet it was enough for
me.
When they're
gone, we talked about my bad experience from Auntie Vangie. Mj told her she
affected me much. And she must not tell her siblings about my plans or what I
am thinking. I don't want them to enter my life. In fact, I'm not excited to
see my Auntie who puts me down, who degrades my education.
Jano arrived
very early at 5. Thanks, God we're water supplied. He will get irate again if
we don’t. What’s the use?
March 28, 2006
I had
an insomniac and disturbed night last night. Yet I rose up early to anticipate
Calove, who scheduled his trip to Boso-Boso today. He confirmed it to me saying
I will be fetched so i must get up early. However, the day passed by that I
couldn't even see his shadow. It made me sad and weary.
Boredom
filled me. I was not in a mood of watching television, as well as writing. Yet,
my mindful mind didn't stop from thinking useful thoughts. I also minded the
possibility of being a tenant to Calove's property in Cadcad. I would love to
live there especially to plant. I always have been dreaming of someday Mj,
Hanna Margaret and I were residing in a house called home.
"On the
family way" Jenny also crosses my thought. I wonder why she did not give
birth yet. I always, however included her and Taiwan in my prayer. Somehow, it
excites me. It's my first time to have a real or brotherly nephew or niece. I
have also asked God to give them a twin (not a Siamese, huh) and made them
happy to the essence of having a twin. Twin is a true God's gift.
Mama and I
disciplined Flor by telling her bad attitudes, habits, and manners. Although
she's always been a deadpan, I know she learns. I emphasized the importance of
wisdom. I wanted her to do what I am doing.
In my prayer,
I included Mama. I asked God to strengthen her physically, mentally, emotionally,
and spiritually.
March 29, 2006
Mama woke me
up and told me to wait for water supply. My entire body was not yet in the
mood, yet I did because Jano gave money for it. He would be annoyed if he'd
come home waterless.
We waited all
day long. We just get annoyed... However, Mama paid an 'aguador' for a
container of water. It doesn't matter then if I couldn't take bath for the
second day today. What matters most is that Jano must have a pail of water for
his bath tomorrow.
Connivance
followed. We displayed the P20 bill Rojano gave me for water supply. He will
think that I get a container of water from "bukal", a spring which is
so far off from our house. I don't want to go there anymore.
The king and
queen arrived. I was right in my guess, that Gie would come with him. The king
seemed happy. He then notices the waterlessness. I just told him 'It didn't
come'. I knew, he saw the P20 bill. It means I have never spent it in any way.
I felt easiness though he started to complain about the rice container. He is
really an overly, exaggeratedly meticulous one, who is always insatiable in the
matter of cleanliness. Haaay! If I could only tell him about it.
The center of
my prayer last night was Flor Rhina. I asked God to make her a real woman who
knows how to behave, how to be a good lady, sister, and daughter and how to use
her spare time. I wanted God to do her an inside and out general makeover.
March 30, 2006
I think
it was past four when Jano woke me up, announcing that the water supply was
approaching. Without much further ado and in a jiffy, I rose up and went
outside. I waited for it in 1 hour. It was my first time in my life to wake up
in a wee time just to catch up something, especially with consideration to
someone.
As a result,
I felt so much drowsiness. I slept; I mean napped after I have taken a bath---
while waiting for Calove (I know they will visit Cadcad today.)
We're very
thankful that the rain fell. I could see how Mama's plants smiled. Rain is
really the 'cream of the crop' in soothing its being withered.
Five, I was
so bored. Thus, I MP3 sound trip. It enlivens me. It's been a long time since I
last did it. I used acoustic CD and heard wonderful tracks such as 'Drive',
'High', etc.
The king
arrived very early. Good thing we had already prepared his water for bathing,
and I have made a plain sardine into patties--- delicious ones. I could not
hear his appreciation, yet I know he liked it.
I
thanked our Lord for the rainfalls, air, food, water, land we live on, wisdom, happiness,
and forgiveness. I asked Him to heal Mama's blurring eyes and weak sense of
hearing. I told Him that she is the reason why I continuously dream of, that I
wanted her to be happy for at least, in her life, few moments.
March 31, 2006
The news that
Jenny had given birth already on the wee time today from Rojano, woke me up. It
was an answered prayer. It excites me. However, the king left without regards
in this matter. We must visit the newest mother and of course the newborn baby
girl Elizaga but he didn't even give us money. We have no money for fare, he
knew that!
I wanted to
visit Jenny and her baby, but I couldn't do. The domestic lizard was ticking. I
knew there is someone who will come. And surprisingly, Taiwan--- newest Daddy
came with a bloody plastic bag of 'inunan'. We shake hands. I congratulated
him. I was so happy seeing him happy, and became happier when he described his
baby, named Yoshimi.
Tai gave me
P50 so that I could visit Yoshimi. However, when I dropped by in Rancho I was
not permitted to bring Hanna due to her just-healed fever. She just underwent
'hilot'. Thus, I followed them.
Mj told me
that Calove bought Hanna two cartons of 800 grams Alactamil. It gladdens me. And
the reason why Baby Marge got fever was that she was exposed to great cold of
aircon in Shopwise when they shopped there. Never mind.
I thanked God
for all these blessings...
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