Anecdote in a Jeepney

Nine o' clock in the evening, I was in a jeepney, going home to Paco. I was thinking of my nephew's project (scrapbook). He indirectly told me to do it for him. So, I was so problematic. 

Because of this thought, I haven't noticed that a girl, on her 10 to 12 years, has been given the passengers white envelope each. I just have seen her after I heard her voice. She was singing a popular OPM song, Buko. Seconds later, she stopped and began collecting the envelopes.

I could see her sweet smile after receiving few peso coins from two or three passengers with golden hearts.

My heart breaks when she picked out the envelope near my shoes. I never thought that she has given me one. Alas! I lost the opportunity to give alms to the needy. I wanted to give but I never initiated an action. I did not know what happened to me.
I usually give, especially to those elderly man and woman and persons with disabilities. I also extend help to the children who offers talents in exchange to coins. But, now I failed to give. I hated myself..

I hated myself even more when I noticed the girl's right feet. It was burnt. And, she could not walk normally.
My heart breaks in two. I hate my self so much. What is the use of my money if I could not help?!

What is five peso or more if I lost it in helping a beggar? I could, I knew, earn that amount repeatedly for many times.But, what can a five peso can do to her? Geeh, I am useless jerk! Stingy, I am..