MY JOURNAL (January 8-14, 2006)

January 8, 2006
 
          It is a Lord’s Day!

          Very early in the morning, Dasok cuts down dried langka tree. I helped him with a happy heart. I realized that 'initiative' is needed to have rather than being directed and commanded.

          I will try to put no grudge in my heart. James 5:9 says, "Grudge not one against another, brethren, lest ye be condemned. 1 Peter 4:9 states, "Use hospitality one to another without grudging." In Leviticus 19:18 it was commanded, "Thou shalt not avenge, nor bear any grudge against the children of thy people, but thou shalt love thy neighbor as thy self: I am the Lord."

          I went to church with willingness. I’m too early to a Sunday school, But it was ok!

          Bro. Lelong taught us about Nehemiah. I have learned that he is a prayerful man who prays for his neighbors day and night.

          Pastor Groyon tackled the last reunion theme, " I am resolved to follow the Savior. " He had explained it very well although it seems to be impromptu.

          Then, I realized that me too is resolved to follow the Savior. There are many ways to follow Him. Philippians 1:29 is one of them --- "To suffer for His sake." Now, I will be stronger to the trials.

          Before I forgot, I have read also this day about weaning and dedication (1 Samuel 1:22) Now I understand when a child is to be dedicated to the Lord. It is "until the child be weaned".

          I went to Polot even though the weather was not good, it was past 12. But when I was in Somagongsong, rain started to fall. I retired to stop over in a "kamalig" along the way. I think I consumed an hour there. so, I sang the two lullabies, composed by me:

A MOTHER'S LULLABY

Na Na Na Na Na Na
My baby, quit crying
In my arms you're lying
Enjoy the warm feeling
My love is never ending
I'm here while you're sleeping
Safeguarding....Protecting

Na Na Na Na Na Na
My baby, hush baby
Close your eyes immediately
Sweet dreams, sleep tightly
You need to be healthy
And gain strong body
So sleep now deeply

Na Na Na Na Na Na
Baby sleep now please
Take a rest be at ease
I'll never leave the premise
I'll stay, that's promise

Na Na Na Na Na Na


ANG HELE NG INA

La La La La La La
Ang batang malusog,
Heto' natutulog
S'ya naman ay busog
Upang di makabog
Sa himbing ng tulog.

La La La La La La
Ang batang mabait
Humimbing, mahigpit
Kelangang pumikit
Mga matang marikit
Upang di sumapit
Sa pagkakasakit.

La La La La La La
Ang batang maganda
Ay matutulog na
Upang lahat sumaya
Buhay, lumigaya
Ng buong pamilya
Lalo na ng ina.

La La La La La La

          I really missed my baby, Hanna Margaret..

          When I was cleaning the yards, Efear arrived. I have thought we would not see each other. After cleaning, we went to their house to cook "pinakro". It was perfect to the rainy weather.

          Five-thirty when I go home. I was holding a pants (I have requested to have from Efear), to my left hand, while the rain is falling. I wished to God that I would not be sick.

          Ate Jennilyn told me that someone texted on her cp, saying that I must go to Antipolo enable me to help them in their nuptials. Papay Benson asked how much it would take to go to Antipolo. I wish he give me money so that I could go home whenever I want to...

          I will pray tonight for (1) TaiJhen Nuptials' success, (2) Pardon for my sin of lying that I don't have yet a fare, (3) Good health and presentability, and (4) Sia Family problem.


January 9, 2006

          Early to bed, early to rise!

          After the rain, I could see the sun beneath the clouds. It was perfect for my visit in Polot today.

          Eking used the bike, so I commuted through Polot. There, I went to Nono's house and he handed me a letter of MJ so as the money. I told Elek about the jacket. I saw her anger.

          I was destructed by the fact that I've lost my wallet, so I rushed home. Good thing happened was I saw it beside my poo.

          I prepared the mini drawer loaded with MJ's things and a little bit of mine to be kept in Elek's room. It is better this way to secure the safety of our things from robbers.

          I read MJ's letter again. The end part of it is the greetings, "Advance Happy 2nd Year Anniversary". Frankly, I forgot it. It was late. I almost lost it in my head. It's maybe because I'm so excited to see Hanna Margaret again.

          I bought viand and went to the library there. I told Auntie Leny about Taiwan's wedding. I borrowed a pocketbook entitled, the Soul of the Silver Dog, by Lynn Hall.

          It was a story of a 14-year-old girl, Corraine and blind Bedlington Terrier dog, Sterling. Sterling is a sheep-like dog, with glaucoma. He was once a champion but disqualified because of his disease. Cory loved and taught him tricks and fought in agility. In the end, Cory realized how painful a death is.

          Past four when I arrived at Sia's home. Ate Jennilyn told me and showed me the text of Mary Jane. I decided to leave tomorrow with or without the money insinuated by Papay Benson. I asked forgiveness to God.

          Then, Ate Jhen let me reply to the text. Me-Ann told me that they request daing and saging.

           After I have done my after-dinner rituals, Papay Benson asked me if I will be leaving tomorrow. I nod. Then he said "O, ito ang pera." I was afraid. So, I said, "Mayroon na," those sent by MJ through the care of Elek. Mama Leling closed my problem when she said that the money is as good as help for Taiwan. I thanked them. "Thank you, Lord!"

          Today I have learned that "God permits us to tell white lies but be sure that it would be for goodness' sake."

          Prayer concern for tonight: My trip tomorrow.


January 10, 2006

          I was really excited, that I rose so early--- 5:30 AM. And 0, I went to Polot. There,I brought the loaded mini-drawer at Reno's house, so as the laundry basket.

          Elek made a letter for her mother and gave the cp requested by Me-Ann..

          I gave the saba to Efear and at the same time, told him that I'm leaving to Manila. I could see his sadness. I couldn't assure him that I'll be back soon.

          I returned the book I borrowed at the Polot Library and rushed home. I arrived at 8:30 AM. Then, pack my things to be carried and to kept. I also managed to sew a maroon pajama for Baby Marge.

          Ten o'clock, when I bought ticket to Cubao. I, then stopped by in the shop to tell them that I'm leaving and to show respect. Then, I bought tuyo and choco loaf.

          My colds are unripe. It makes me irritable and uneasy. It affects me badly. So, i took Neozep.

          Mama Leling gave me P200 for tuyo but I only consumed P125 because tuyo is out of stock already. Another thing is that I have bought already beforehand.

          I'm handling the letter of Elek, letter of Mama Leling and letter of Papay Benson. I'm with a medium-sized travelling bag with shoes, two pants, baby dresses, employment requirements, jacket, photo album, dried fishes, and blazer for Mama. I'm riding on a Mega Bus Lines with a bus number of 329Y.

         "Lord God, in a few moments, I would be leaving Bulan. Please take care of our house. Please keep it away from bad elements, especially to the Federico Elizaga and Family, who know how much I care for our future home. I'm just leaving it for a while, in a reason, but I long to settle my family there. Oh, God, keep us safe to our trip. Give the drivers active mind and protection. Amen."

          I think, it was 3 when our bus geared up to Manila. My excitement grew faster.

          My colds lose my appetite that I never eaten all the choco loaf so as the Nova. I didn't even help to watch the movies shown in the bus. I couldn't also manage to talk to my seatmate.

          Anyways, the bus went through no problem. It feels like the speed is only 40 kph but it was so speedy rather.


January 11, 2006

          Three-past when the bus arrived at Alabang. It was also the time I have gained myself from sleepiness. Then, I prepared myself...

          Exactly 4 AM, I arrived at MJ's house. I wondered if it was Hanna who is sleeping. MJ was under the blanket. I didn't recognize her at first because she has no hair compared to the last month when I'm with her. But the "jump-of-blood" told me it was Hanna. So, I woke MJ up. I kissed Hanna lovingly on her cheek. I tried to wake her up, but she just changed position.

          After taking coffee, Hanna woke up. I was so happy to see her smile again and to see that she's now so "malikot" and knows how to handle her bottle.

          I tried to sleep but I couldn't. I'm at ease looking at Hanna sleeping.

          After lunch, me, Hanna and MJ went to Bautista, though I have fever due to colds. In Gate 2, we bought Bonna for Hanna's stay until Saturday. I have not buy diaper because my money is just for our fare. "I am sorry, baby."

          Taiwan's day off today. I knew something about their wedding. They also knew something about what's happening in Bulan.

          Prayer Concern, tonight: Tai-Jen Nuptials

         Jano and Gie arrived. They told MJ about job. Tomorrow, MJ and Gie will go to Sta. Mesa for an interview.


January 12, 2006

         Three AM -- It's so early to wake up. Hanna couldn't sleep. She just played and played till Mary Jane left. I could now see how hard to babysit Hanna is. She has a slight fever.

          It was five when Jeng left. Then, Hanna took her milk then had fallen asleep. She then woke up past 7, when Gie ws already gone to meet MJ at Santolan-MRT Station.

          Luckily, I have P500 so it was used by Mary Jane. I wished and prayed to the Lord for her success. I'm so hopeful that she can make it.

          Nine AM, Hanna and I watched "Barney &Friends". I noticed how happy she is watching them singing and dancing. I realized too why she is raising her both hands often. (She's raising it up and down as if she is doing an exercise.) It because she saw it oftentimes with them.

          She fell asleep at 9:45. Thanks, God! For I could do chores.

           I remember our house in Polot. this is the second day I am far from it. I'm worried. There are so many valuable things, still, there.

           Hobee woke up after a few minutes of sleep. She was uneasy and her "nose was running". Mama wiped her body with lukewarm cloth and Hobee started to cry. She took her milk then stopped crying.

           Hobee is so sensitive with noise and becomes irritated. she makes us worried because she cries all day long. She could not even sleep tightly.

           Mj arrived at 6 PM. According to her, Geraldine's employer told her to get transcript. It made me frustrated. I thought she will be hired. But she said she passed personal data sheet to Antipolo City Hall through the help of Tito Jun. Wherever!

           After few moments, Hobee looks happy compared to the whole day she spent without mommy.


January 13, 2014

          Quarter to two, Hanna woke up us all when she cried because of her sicknesses--- colds, cough an slight fever. Jano is worried. I could feel his fear that we might lose Hanna. Of course, it will not happen. She is so dear to us. We do not want something happen to her that will sadden us.

          Honestly, I was worried then. She's coughing. I'm scared that she might not breathe. However, I have fallen asleep again and left MJ took care Hanna.

          Hanna woke up happily. We're so happy too seeing her happy face.

          MJ and Hanna are supposed to be left today but due to Baby's wellness, it was postponed. It was favorable to us that we would be with Baby Marge for long.

           It is Friday-the-Thirteenth! According to them, it is a dangerous day. Hmp! I don't care. I'm with my baby all day long. There is no bad luck to be happened.

          I've learned to Game KNB that fear of Friday the 13th is PARASLEVIDECATRIAPHOBIA. Huh! It's so tongue-twisting but needs to be memorized.

          I read FHM Magazine. I have read there about other terms of masturbation: flying solo, wanking, jerking, and beating the meat. These are helpful, although nasty, so that I will not be ignorant in sexual lingo. It is not bad, right? So, I will 'fly solo' tonight! Lol.

          Anyways, I watched Porkchop Duo CD. (It was 9 AM, after we watched Barney.) It was really funny! Green yet funny. It made my day happier. At least I realized one of the "25 Ways to be Happy", not to mention the happiness of being a father of smart, beautiful, and hyperactive Hanna Margaret.

          I cut my own hair. It turned out nice. I became baby-faced again. And the best thing is my resemblance to TJ of "Only You", remained. Angal ka?

          Mj and Hobee will go home morrow. I'll stay here because Mama and I will cook the halaya for the wedding day reception. "Please God, protect them from their trip. Make them safe. Please also give Nanay and Tatay an understanding why I can't go with them, Thank you!"


January 14, 2006

          Good morning! That was the greetings of all of us to Hobee She really makes everybody happy. She inspires us, I mean, our day.

          All our attentions were given to her. Even when I was working with ube I wanted her to play with me, to talk to me.

          Since, I am here. I must do something. So, I brushed the rusts out of the drum, which will be used in wedding preparation. Then, I mashed the ube.

          As a result, my chest ached.

          It was 2, when Hanna and Mj went home. I could see on my baby's face the sadness of being temporarily separated to me. I felt that way too, but they must go home because tomorrow will be the cramming day for all of us.

          My money (P500) is now only P150. I wish I could go home early as possible.

          Few minutes after Mj had gone, Mama blew up. I was scared and worried that she might not do her obligation on the coming wedding. I asked Him to heal her.

          Six-fifteen, Taiwan arrived and asked me why he looks sad. Why? I asked. He replied, "Hindi kami sumuweldo, e" Huh? What will happen to his wedding reception?

          Every one of us thought Jano won't go home tonight because it was already 10 PM, but a couple of minutes later he and his fiancee, Geraldine Aban, arrived. They've got a lot of bags on their hands. I thought these were food but I was mistaken.

          What was happening to him? He didn't give Mama even a centavo for budget. He is really a reliant person. Maybe because he knew and saw that I have P500 on hand.

          We fried dried fish for ulam but they don't like it. So, they borrowed trike and bought ulam. Guess what they have bought.... Red eggs!

          That is the result of being not considerate.

          Because I'm so tired, I closed my eyes to sleep and did not care about them, although they were both (Jano and Tai) problematic.

          Thanks, God, I had a good night sleep. I dreamt of a fantasy dream...